Just keep breathing

I know you forgot all about me ,
I feel like i dont exist anymore
Im lost & i need an escape, I love how you kept us a secret
I felt like you were ashamed of me
Thanks for not giving a fuck .
Thanks for never standing up for me .
I feel like i'm on the floor getting stomped on.
Am I invisible to you ?
I do want you to notice me ,
I;m fucking sick to my stomach thinking about it
Do you even give a fuck ?
Did you even fucking love me ?
Do you even care what happens to me ?
I know, I fucked up ... ACTUALLY .
I dont know what i did but thanks for breaking it off randomly.
You were the only one i held on to , I'm struggling to see whats good in me
So call me a wreck , I know i am
But you should give me another chance .
I guess you never knew me at all ,
Stop pointing out my every flaw .
Ypu just said it was a pointless argument.
I guess I didnt mean a thing to you .
I just have to be happy the hard way .
Just tell me i'm a wreck and get it over with ,
I wonder what kept us holding on ,
you made my world dissapear.
Say what you cant say & that will be the answer to everything ,
There was no other place I wanted to be ,
Why did we follow through for so long ?
What the fuck kept us holding on ?
Its to hard to say goodbye ..
How could love hurt this bad.

Amaze me.

"If embracing all lifestyles will lead me to hell, then I'll see you all there. Its going to be one incredibly tolerant and happy inferno.
Dreams don’t always have to exist while the sun’s down and your eyes are shut
Be real, because a mask only fools people on the outside. Pretending to be someone you’re not takes a toll on the real you, and the real you is more important than anyone else.
Do things you want in life, because you might get hit by a bus
So worried about what's next, you lost today

Save Me

I'm thinking about other things I heard about today ,
All this week and tomorrow & how these hands could create some better things,
a better ring
But you'll see for now I got my own things,
I cant help it, I got too many issues I own.
So I cant help,
I'm afraid
But keep on preaching , Preaching & heal the world
Do you feel the world singing sorrow ?
or do you , is it just not real ?
Cause you got your own things
Yeah ,we all have our things .. I guess..
I'm stuck here alone while couples are in love
I dont get it, I'm not asking for much
But everybody just wants something.
So i'll be picking me up and breaking me down .
I was lost , was I found ?
I want to feel everything
When everything feels wrong with me.
Take a look , embrace myself ,
Everybody wants to make it count
Save me cause I can never float sinking.
Amaze me & I would be holding on for life.
So save me please .
The walls are blank its like they're talking to me .
I put a picture on the wall , Took a chance , Took a fall .
I was blind, now I can finally see .

Where's the trust in us?

August 28th + 29th= Best night day ever,
Thanks for taking care of me ,
I thought wrong,
Thanks for taking care of my problem,

Why did you come back?.
I'm scared to let you back in my life .
You're just going to hurt me again,
Sometimes we spend more time worrying about why we made poor choices in the past than we do making good ones for the future
It's time to move forward
But i'll hold the past in mind.

Together, = TO GET HER

The hardest part is letting go of the shit thats happened to you ,
some things are better left unsaid,
while everyone lives their life i'll be sticking here thinking about what i've done.
and what has happened.
action speaks louder than words.
i have no emotions,
I cant see you again , you're gone..... forever,

I thought I could be in your arms,
I hope this can last forever,
just move back here,
but things wouldnt be the same.
Its too late but i'm sure ..
another dream , another night wasted on you
I've lost trust in everything.
Theres nothing left inside,
The silence will set you free.
I wished you said you love me before you left.
I wish time would ease the pain.
nothing would be the same. hands weaken , dies a little more each time,
im sick of crying myself to sleep Im going to stop beating myself up .
you've done what you've done.
its over , i'm fine.
you're beautiful ,Tell me that you love me and it would be alright,
if you love me come with me tonight ,
I need you just like you need me ,
please dont stop now,
lets just stop and take a look at where we're at
you're all i've got .
I'm all yours. I'll make the best of things,
All I know is that I want to be here with you,
I know how this is going to end,
but I cant help myself
I think I wont ever learn,
I am me , you are you ,
we cant make it through together,
I'm scared of everything, I dont know if i can trust anyone anymore,
Dont make promises you cant keep ,
go for her, shes better than me .
dont worry about me.. i'll sit here building up my wall again.
The silence feels deadly,

FUUUUCKING RAAAPE.

SHDOSAHIOSDHADFUOHDUFH .
FUCK YEAH . <3
NAME : MUNRO CHAMBERS
JOOB : ACTOR

SIBLING ; THOMAS CHAMBERS ( IDENTICAL TWINS )
AGE; 17.



-----------------------
THEREFORE
MOTHER FUCKING RAAAPE .

aldhashdsuafdhkf.

People change, things go wrong but shit happens but life goes on .
I'm glad you're on your feet
i'm guessing your life is going well .
Mine ... not so much .
people dying , leaving . and so on .
but i'm fine without you
Thanks for wondering

Rest In Paradise

Waiting is the worst part ever ,
We all know its going to happen soon .
Dont cry yourself to sleep , You know her better than we all do .
She lived a great life , Dont cry because its over, Smile because it happened .
We will soon get stronger ,
Everything happens for a reason , Just accept it and move on.
Life is harsh .
We dont get second chances.
you'll always be in our hearts
You're not alone on this road.
I'm afraid of forgetting your voice & what you look like .
I love you , Always will .

Rest In Paradise ♥.

I Cant Complain .

I am who I fucking am.
You cant change me.
Shes a flirt, You like her and I like a fucking player.
stupid fucking dicks ._."
Im confused ,
But im glad to say i'm over you.
Dont think I hate you , I could never hate you & " Hate" is a strong word,
I'd like to use dislike.
I dont know what I will do once I see you.
Acting like strangers kills ,
soo thats why i'm transferring :) .
Goooooooooodbye Danforth.
Gooodbye house .
Goodbye everyone.
New place, Fresh start.
Goodbye Everything, Hello nothing.

Here we go again.

WOOOOW .
Fucking dicks these days .
I'm sorry for being fucking blind.
I was better off not fucking knowing .
But thanks for telling me.
Stop walking out of my life .
You're off traveling the world with your parents..
Thanks for telling me the last second.
Thanks.
Despite the fact that you told me last minute , I'll still care about you.
I've known you since I was 10, You were there by my side ,
Now that you've gone with your family... :/
I dont know what to do ,
It feels like loosing a friend forever ,
You were the one who stopped me from doing stupid things.
I'm not going to cry ,
I'll smile because it happened.

.

I'm tired of crying myself to sleep,
My eyes are waaay to puffy.
I just told everyone else I fell outta bed and hit my eyes on something.
I wish you saw the sadness in my eyes while everyone else see's a smile on my face.
99% you got over me,
but there is still a 1% chance you're still into me.
its one in a million chance but it still could happen,
more than half of my friends are NOT my friends till this day,
Because they didnt deserve to make it into my future,.
the past is the past,

What if " Forever " Is not enough?

I cant sleep.
Why the fuck do I still care about you?.
I keep re-reading our messages.
Why cant I get over you so quickly like you did to me?
People need to stop saying sorry ,
Some people just need to put their money where their mouth is.
I thought summer 2010 would be a summer to remember, I guess not.
I never thought you actually meant this goodbye.
I've had days where I feel I could conquer the world,
But now.. I'd be lucky if I even have a smile,
I'm feeling out of place.

What do I have to do? Cause I'll do anything
To prove myself to you , you mean everything
I'm sorry for disappointing you
I'm still in love with you
And now we can't go back cause I'll do anything
I'm feeling so afraid, can feelings go away?
I tried to fly, but my feet never left the ground
Tell myself that it's alright
But it's not enough,
I tell myself its alright but its not enough,
You have no idea I still love you.
It's pretty clear you're a chance worth taking
If only you saw me, You'll see its killing me.
I wonder if you'll ever return.
I miss how I talked to you everyday.
Its more like once a month now.
I wish you cared enough to say that i'm dumb & we shouldnt go back to being strangers.
If only you knew how I am right now.
Tell me to my face i'm not perfect,
Tell me i'm a mistake.
Tell me everything I dont need to hear.
I hate how I see lovely happy couples walking around everywhere,
I feel like i'm useless to everyone.
I feel like no one likes me for who I am, I'm sorry i'm not perfect
I'm sorry i'm not beautiful , I'm sorry for all the trouble i've caused.
I'll do what I have to do .
The stupid things I do, Is only for you .
To prove myself I can do it.
I miss your fingers in between mine,
I miss your hugs, kisses
I miss resting my head on your shoulders ,
I miss kissing your cheeks ,
I miss kissing your head.
I miss smiling,
I miss laughing.
I miss you kissing my hand
I miss your beautiful smell ,
I miss everything about you
I hate it when you weren't there for me , But thank you for the moments when you were there for me.
I wonder if I could get another chance,
but whats the difference?
you're going to end up hating me as always.
Time posted : 4:59 AM,
Told you I cant sleep.

I wish you care about me.

Forever Is Over.

Fucking assholes can suck my dick dry , Fags.
I havent slept in one fucking full week trying to make you that shit .
that shit costs ALOT.
Why the fuck are you yelling at me? .Fucking dick .
I dont know who the fuck I trust anymore ,
Family is nothing ,.
Thanks for being a dick all these years,
I'm not going to feel sorry for myself ,
Everything happens for a reason ,
I'll show you what i'm made of .
I can pull through .
I'm not a piece of shit.
I know I make disappoint lots of people ,
but I also made people very happy.
..



I know you ignore my messages ,
Oh fuck this shit .
I'm done with everything.

Someone Slap Me,

Dont count on me for anything ,
You were my shooting star , You faded away ,
Every tear is a sign for how much I love you
Every smile is a sign of how much I miss you
Every silence is a sign of how much I hate you
...
WOWOOWOW .
FUCKING FAGGOT,
Stupid drug addict . Hope you rot in hell ._."
Fuck my life, I still like you .
why the fuck do I still like you.
I dont give a fuck about what you do ,
You can go die at an early age for all I fucking care ,
I dont even know why the hell i'm still awake.
screw it ,
I'm still in love with you -_-.

ASDHSADIUHSDUASD,

You wanna know what kills me the most?
I dont know why I still like you.
I thought being back to strangers was better, but I guess not.
I wish I had enough courage to walk up to you and say what I want to say.
I wish you can see my emotions,
But you dont care at all,
If you cared you wouldve said no to being strangers,
I wish I could care less ,
I dont know why I still try when there is no point,
I wonder if you still care about me, even just a little.
You were the only one who cared about me,
I sent the last message hoping you would say something nice back,
I guess you dont care at all.
I had nothing else to write back.
Tell me if you care or not, because im going to just walk away.

Oh my...

I am messed up on the outside, as I am in the inside.
You told me that you'd never hurt me & that you love me.
Thats lies.
You smashed me into a million pieces & you hate me.
I hate how the only person who can make me smile is the one who made me cry.
All I've ever wanted to do was make you happy. That's it.
But sometimes you push me too hard, and I don't tell you that.
Why? Because I feel like just breathing disappoints you and that nothing I do will ever make you happy

Did you notice that since you broke up with me I have no emotion?
It's because I love you so much, it hurts just to see/hear about you
I'm tired of crying myself to sleep,
I'm tired of telling myself i'm ugly, invisible, everything that people dont want... I'm a mistake.
I'm tired of telling everyone i'm fine,
I'm sick of acting happy.
I dont give a fuck about anything anymore.
Everything hurts, Its sad to say that pain is not a new friend of mine.
All I need is someone to look in my eyes & say You're not a mistake & actually mean it.
but of course thats impossible.

--- Not going to blog for awhile.

Its the Answer to anything.

You dont give a fuck and neither do I
I'm glad to say that we're strangers.
You dont give a fuck about me, and never did
So why should I ?
People say things they dont mean ,
I meant everything I said.
Hopefully you did.
I wonder if you even cared about me at one point.
The feeling is lost in every single one of us ,
How could love hurt this bad, How could we lose all that we had,
.. Sometimes love cant make you stay.
Say what you need to say,
You were the one who made the world disappear .
Everything happens for a reason , Why cant I accept that already?
I'm just happy the hard way ,

Believe = Lie
Lover = Over
Friends = end
Life = If.

"Half our life is spent trying to find something to do with the time we have rushed through life trying to save."

I'm stupid , useless , Cant do anything right
Difficult, ugly, incredibility retarded, boring
suck at everything.
I never ignore anyone who cares about me ,
I was in love , My bad ..
I dont know why I love and hate you ,
It seems like every step I take is a bigger and bigger mistake ,
It takes one second to hurt the people you love most , & it takes a lifetime to heal.
Dont judge me , you cant handle half the shit i've dealt with.
People change, We just have to let go.
When things go wrong, Appreciate them when they turn better,
People fall apart So thats why better people fall together .
Its not a matter of being alone, Its the matter of feeling lonely when you're surrounded by everyone.
I will not let my feelings be stepped on .
I didnt run away from you ,
I walked slowly & it kills me that you dont care enough to stop me.
The only thing i want from YOU is for YOU to STAY away ,
I'll smile even though i'm breaking.
When one door of happiness closes another opens, but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us..
Like birds, let us, leave behind what we don't need to carry ( cheesy I know . but stfu)
When true love & Happiness comes your way grab it while you can
I hate you for making me fall in love with you .
Strength is not how good you are , It is how good you could hide the pain.
Nothing hurts more then waiting since I don't even know what I'm waiting for anymore,Tears are words from the heart .. that can't be spoken
If you dont understand my silence you wont understand my word

Oh wow. Life is perfect

It feels just great to be called a mistake several times,
I'm starting to believe that
I dont fucking live to please anyone.
I dont give a fuck about anyone anymore,
Friends are slipping away,
I finally figured out who my true friends are.
I have nothing left in me,
I'm not going back to the past
You're a bitch & I dont give a fuck, continue messing up my life.

I'm tired of pleasing you,
Maybe I am a mistake,
I'm sorry for everything im not, I feel im invisible to everyone,
I hope everyone else is having a better time then me.
I feel hate everywhere I go ,
I dont belong to anyone or anywhere
The tears I try to hold in only makes me stronger
It feels GREAT to be forgotten

Find the person who will love you because of your differences and not in spite of them and you have found a lover for life.

True love is when your heart and your minds are saying the same thing.

Stop asking if im okay, I'm perfectly fine.
I hate that I have to lie to you,
You dont know whats going on, You dont care
If you still love me you would've called and said I love you and apologized.
I dont know why I cant get over you,
You probably found someone better,
You're amazing,Im not.

I've already died on the inside.
I am a mistake..
I'm just going to stop. :/

I'm Just Happy The Hard Way

I'm fine here without you .
The title says it all .
All I can see is a past that I barely recognize anymore .
It's funny the way you can get use to the tears and the pain like its nothing ,
I feel like i'm on a sinking ship .
I have nothing to write,
I'm starting not to give a shit anymore,
I need to stop re-reading our conversations.
Tell me what you cant say .

Germany better beat Spain .
Or else i'm going to chop your nuts off .

I'm perfectly fine. :)

I love how you showed me you dont care.
I took a chance and I fell for you .
I'm torn apart like hell .
I keep my promises ,
I promise you I'll get over you.
Tell me one thing ,
how can you move on so fast?
I'm guessing you have no heart..

Treat her like you never treated me,
If you dont want to share your feelings with anyone then dont get into a relationship,
Keep your feeling to yourself.
This feels like nothing new ,.
my heart broke into pieces. but i'm fine i'll fix it by myself.
I'm slowly moving on
Everything happens for a reason , so smile while the good things are in front of you .

Summer 2010.

I like how you act like nothing happened between us,
I like how you moved on so quickly
I liked how you were so different
I like how you dont know a clue of whats going on with me or my life
I hate that we know each other.
I hate that i cant sleep at night , because im busy thinking about you.
I like how you're always positive.
I'd give the world to you to make you happy.
I like how I risked my life by seeing you.
I hate that gut feeling, clenched teeth feeling.
I like how you lied,
I cant believe I bought your lies.
I love how i cant think straight.
I like how I cant breathe at night because i'm too stressed out.
I like how you walked away.
I LOVE how you've been filling up the empty space between us.
Treat the next girl right,
I like how i keep on refreshing my facebook page to see if you responded,
I like how you stopped asking if i'm awake yet,
I love how you stopped caring.
I like how you dont notice my feelings,
I love how I feel so invisible
I dislike how my family realizes that i'm changing.

Finally Moving Forward

I was afraid to fall for you ,
When I did I was afraid to get to know you .. When I did you held my heart.
Once you did.... you broke it after awhile, Thats alright because I'll get back up on my feet .
Now I miss you ,
I have no feelings for you .. You're just a stranger to me
Its just a huge ass hill. I'll get over it
Trust Is Like A Paper, Once It’s Crumpled it Can’t Be Perfect
you will find something better to play with instead of my heart..
whats the point in trying ?
I could write a million things I hate & love about you .

Maybe Its All For The Best

My mind is ready to move on but my heart keeps on telling me to wait for you to come back.
I'm guessing you'll never come back to me,
Every time I think about you I fall into pieces
Life shouldnt be called a game & the heart shouldnt be called a toy.
Its time for me to move on ,
I cant stay like this forever..
My mind has already moved on ,
My heart is about to move on... Soon i'll be fine again.
Thanks for everything,
my fear was losing you ,
it happened within a second...
Time to move forward..
I dont see any good in this mess

I'm perfectly fine , I'll get over it some day.
You got over me, now its time I do the same..
I keep hanging on,
I thought you were NOT going to hurt me, turns out you were like the others.
I was never mad at you , I was just disappointed .
Everything happens for a reason , The bad things in life just make us stronger ,
I've been fooled again .
I fall too fast, I'll keep my heart to myself, :|
I learn from my mistakes, Hopefully I dont put my heart out there ever again.
I'm not over reacting or taking it too hard ,.
Its not my fault I care, My bad. I'll start not giving a fuck ,
This feels like its nothing new ,
I just havent felt this way in awhile..
Stop building me up then breaking me down ,
tell me why you're so hard to forget
dont remind me, im not over it tell me why
i cant seem to face the truth
im just a little too not over you.
sometimes people aren't sure of their feelings
they like the attention the person gives them, not the actual person
everyone just wants someone to want them .
It you want to leave , be my guest.. Just leave now before I fall for you over and over again.
If I could go back now I would not change a thing.

Been Waiting Too Long

How can you be friends with someone if every time you look at them it makes you want them even more? :/

Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak, sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go.
Its funny when you go though the year, day by day nothing seems to change, but when you look back, everything is different,
When one person is missing, it seems like the whole world is missing
If you ever stop loving someone,then you never truly loved them in the first place.
For every beauty there is an eye somewhere to see it. For every truth there is an ear somewhere to hear it. For every love there is a heart somewhere to receive it.
Errrrrrr.
I'm gonna live life the way it is ,

^_^

whatever happened in the past is done. you cant take it back or try to get it back, if it's meant to be it'll happen. shit happens and people change so you can learn to let go and move on.
Sometimes you just have to start over, to become a changed person..but your morals will remain the same.
Sometimes you have to get high, to see whats in front of you.
Sometimes you have to be yourself, to be recognized.
Its life, life is difficult, life is a journey.

Too many promises have been made ,
Another month has gone by and I havent slept,
Cant you tell something has got to change?
When the tears are gone i'll be whoever I want to be
I feel like i've been smashed up into pieces,
I wonder if you're worth it,.
Transitions are taking place,
I wonder how.
So dear I love him that with him, All deaths I could endure. Without him, live no life.
---- Romeo & Juliet. ♥

.. Boneless piece of me go rock hard. HAHA . ;)

Pass me another bottle of vodka & lets lay underneath the stars.
I know if it wasnt for you , I would tear this place apart,
I'm not worth your time,
I'm useless to you ,
I'll wait for you because I care.
Dont say this wont last forever .
You're breaking my heart,
I tried my best to care about you .
I could've been a better girl ,
I wonder why you walked away...
When you came back for a day we slipped apart, I'm a mess.
You can tell me i'm a wreck ,tell me i'm a mess Because I am .
I could have been better.. Way better .
I'll do anything you want me to do .
Keep your promises ,
I miss your heart beat ,
Take me to a safe place, I dont want to let go
If I could go back I wouldnt change a thing ,.
We made mistakes but we followed our hearts,
Everyone's screaming and saying i'm not going to get there.
At least I can dream.
Lets chase this night ,
Sometimes love cant make you stay.
Say what you cant say, Tell me the answer to anything.
You make my world disappear ,
How could we lose the love we had.
We live like a storm,
I'm still hanging on.
Inside or out you're still Beautiful
There is nothing that you can do to change my mind about you ,
You came without a warning,
I got my mind set on you , you are beautiful ,
Your personality caught my attention,
I got half way out of the door , I already have butterflies in my stomach ,

I'll quit crying & wipe the tears off of my eyes ,
I'll think about you later in my empty room.
This might be the last chance,
I'm not into goodbyes
All I want to know is why did you leave me ?
Lets make the nights longer and better,
I miss our fun days,
Dont go away again,
I wont forget our memories ,
Maybe we drifted apart but..
I love you ,
Always and forever

I Better Find Your Heart

I've seen love die, way too many times when it deserved to be alive
Sometimes I wonder why you act like that, I wonder if you even listen
I still remember when you had my back but now it seems like you've been more distant.
It takes time to change.
I'll give it my all but it still wont work ,
I love you ....

Somethings Gotta Change.

Good, better, best. Never let it rest. Until good is better, and better is best.
Don't wait for time, there will be no answer, if you wait too long
I can wait here for a million years .
I have nowhere to go
I'll be up all night
Its not too late ,
I'm going to live it up while i'm still alive.
Your dreams can smash in one second into pieces ,
Give it everything you've got.
You'll see i'm not crazy, Its just worth a fight
I'm blinking out saying no need to worry,

I'll tell you one last lie.

To Keep You Close To Me

Just give it a rest,
Stop caring
I'll tell you everything you want to know
Lets forget each other but remember all the memories we shared
I dont know who to trust
I'll show you what i'm about ,
Take a step forward
If only we had time to notice that we were wrong ,
Take the time to let it go ,
I have to step away and watch you go
You can stay if you want to , and i'll tell you how you've been special to me.
We are all tied up and wrapped around shit,
Lets shake everything until they break ,
With all the time is left, lets just forget
Lets light this city from the bottom up ,
Slow down and let your heart change your mind.
I want to get away and watch the seasons change ,
Its getting better and its all because of you ,
I wish I could go somewhere far away from here
Did you dream of me when the lights went down? :S
I like to risk everything,
Show me what you got.
I could say I love you with my fingers crossed,
I just want to be in your arms.
...
Half our life is spent trying to find something to do with the time we have rushed through life trying to save,

Tell Me Something Good.

I cant take it anymore,
Lets just stop and walk away from each other
I built this wall , you knocked it down.
I'm speechless
If only I could walk into a perfect world.
You still never answered my question.
Come amaze me like you always do,

I'm slowly moving forward.

You have my heart so please keep it safe,
I promise i'll keep yours safe,
I'm missing you like crazy,
I'm glad you're coming home tomorrow ♥
Loved you once, love you still,
always have,always will

Eh ,

I cant stop thinking about you ,
About what I did wrong.
I wish everything was okay.
It seems like you dont want to talk ,
Stay in my life , Dont walk out
Too many people have done that already.. Maybe a few more could walk out...
I feel like my heart dropped & it cant get back up
If only I wasnt young , stupid and restless .
If only I could forget this..
Please just forget me .

Falling Off A Building Hurts Less

Why cant I get over you ?.
Why cant I accept the fact that whats done is done,
You're a thousand miles away...
I'm fearless ,
Someone take my hand and walk into a new world with me.
My mind isn't caring but my heart is breaking & yelling at my mind saying I do care,.
Impatient & insecure
I make mistakes, I am out of control & at times hard to handle.
But if you can't handle me at my worst,
then you don't deserve me at my best anymore.
There's no way I can speak to you now,
whats done is done, Forgive and forget right?
someone just beat my heart so I dont fall into pieces again
I wish I could move on with my life just like that..
Once again.
I'm still in love with you ,

Whats done is done

Is it a crime to love someone to much ?
its not my fault I care about you too much
There is nothing left to say ,
Whats done is done,
I take awhile to get over things
but its alright
I just have to let go of things ,
Smile because it happened ,
I wont cry because its over,.
Everything makes me stronger
I told you if you were going to walk in my life dont walk out of it .,
but you didnt listen.. you obviously walked out without a look back
Stop trying to fix things , everything happens for a reason
Stop making things go back to normal,
whats done is done,.
I'm just going to get hurt again ,
I dont know about you but i have already died on the inside..
When the lights turn green i'm going as fast as i can and never regret anything.

I Feel So Ashamed

I cant get over you ,
I hate myself for loving you ,
Our relationship stings a lot.
what hurts the most is you lied.
You said you love me.. 1 minute later you break up with me..
how nice.
I bruise quickly, so please dont hurt me.
You're weird, and not perfect
but thats okay , i'm like that too
you know my ugliest side , when i'm sad you're always there to make sure i'm okay.
Im sorry we had to break apart ,
I'm sorry i'm not perfect.
I wont say anything at all .
I feel so ashamed , loving you use to be so easy.
I'll change everything you want me to change,
I want to make us perfect again,
Someone just take me anywhere but here.
Everyone is gone when you need them the most,
dont crush me,
I'm a dreamer. I wont let you down
I dont know if you feel weird talking to me ,
But it kills me .

lets stop , :S

Here we go again ,
I feel like there is a knife in my heart,
Its alright because I know someone else out there is better for you ,.
I'm not going to hang on ,
I'll just let it be,
I feel like i'm suffocating .
Dont make promises you cant keep ,
say things you mean ,
I've already died on the inside,
I have nothing to say ,
I have to clench my teeth & take a deep breath when you talk to me,.
I feel like my heart dropped and disappeared .

I will always love you ,
even though you hate me.

:$

I'm starting to care a lot more less,.
You're leaving in a few weeks,
havent talked in awhile...
thanks a lot for this.
I'm going to stop worrying and caring.


* I'm fucked in the head, wont be blogging for awhile

derjtdfgtuktmgbhb,. :|?

Cant you see that we're falling apart?
you're busy with your friends,
you dont even make an effort to hang out,
Thanks a lot .
I'm guessing this is a love hate relationship,
I cant handle it.
im busy worrying + thinking about you while you go out and have fun.
Behind my smile is a broken heart and behind my laugh, I'm falling apart
The chances of finding someone like you is one in a million,
What we have is worth fighting for,
Everything may not be perfect, But at least we tried.

Ahhh :\

...
I miss you like crazy already,
I've been waiting for a response,
I have been looking at my phone the whole day.. wishing you would call,
I'm guessing you're busy packing your bags ready to leave.
I think i'm going insane.

Lets Break This Chain

I'll do everything for you ,
I'm not a fighter, I'm a lover , But i'll fight for what I believe in ,
I believe in love .
Sit back and relax ,
I miss you like crazy, I havent heard your voice in awhile
I feel like attacking you with long hugs and kisses ,
I havent seen you in days,
I'll blame everything on our love
too tired and sore to think ,
I love you , Forever and always ♥

Let Me Simply High-five Your Face

So many shit talkers in this world,
Why waste their time talking shit ? .
they have no life ,
I find shit talkers funny , they amuse me
Dont EVER think I never have your back ,
I'll be the one you come to for everything,
Dont waste your time talking to fake ass friends.
Just forget about it , Look what she has become .
Live your life to the fullest ,
Dont make anyone stop you from what you want to do ,
Shoot for the moon & stop looking at the stars.
I'll tell you one thing ,
I'm here forever, I'll be the one who cares forever

Ehhhh..

...
I get that you're sad,
But i'm pissed...
I basically ran home and looked like a fool to hang with you .
Turns out you dont want to hang out .. thanks a lot .
I do care that you're sad & i'll give the world to you to make you happy.
I actually got dressed, I was waiting for your call .
I shouldnt be making a big deal out of this
And I wont..
Stop blowing me off at the last minute ,
You asked me if I loved you ,
Of course I do .
I would fight the world for you ,
Life is a crazy ride and nothing is guaranteed.
I"m scared of loosing you all over again .
Dont say You'll always love me , Cause I know you wont.
Say I love you if you mean it .
I think you dont understand how much I love you ,
no matter what I say
I'll always love you forever.

Its All Right .....

I have that warm fuzzy feeling when I think about you ,
Maybe our relationship isnt as crazy as it seems ,
Water & Fire wont mix.
I'm tired of the games and the lies , I just want you by my side ,
We are running back , :\
Stop breaking up with me ,
Stay here for good .
If you have dont intend to hurt me ,
How can I be so near and not see whats in front of me ? :|
I'm just blinded by love ,
Your love .
I cant tell you what it really is, I can only tell you how I feel ,
I thought it was going great , You had to call it off .
I would never hurt you , So whatever you want is fine with me ..
I'm dying on the inside over and over again ,
I love you way too much to leave you .
I'll be your escape to safety.
" I Love You "
I love the way you lie .

I Just Want You All To Myself

Lets kick , Scream , shout
Have you ever loved someone so much that you cant breathe ?
Call me crazy ,
Its too late to close my mouth .
I would call it quits but you're to great,
I'm going insane, I miss your voice .. I miss your kisses,
I cant hardly sleep, You're always on my mind
I think waaay too much ,
When love is not madness , it is not love .
This blog title might sound a little selfish ,
But I do want you all to myself
Lets walk away from this world and create our own world.
By the way , I couldnt sleep so thats why I am blogging
I love you , Forever and always ♥

You're My Superman ♥

If you dont understand my silence, You probably dont understand my words.
I cant take this i'm going crazy,

I'm a weird and confused girl ,
I take things seriously and i worry about the stupidest things ever,
I like to re-read our conversations when i miss you,
Which is every second of the day.
I smile when i talk to you or hear your name ,
I get pissed over nothing,
There is no point to hide it ,
I have no problem with you , If only you could read my mind
and if only you knew everything about me
Hopefully you wont break my heart again ,
Your love for me better not be fake ,
Shut up and kiss me <3
I miss your smile ,
I havent met anyone like you ,
I love you , There is nothing I hate about you <3
Its never too late to go back and fix things,

99th Blog Post Thing....! ♥

To love is a decision to be made every waking moment,
Please take my hand so we could run away ,
It hurts to love someone if they dont love you back ,
I feel like i'm lost and can never be found,
I need you by my side,
if you're going to leave my life ,
Might as well leave now..
Nothing makes a difference about the way i feel for you ,
You make me head spin,
Lets walk away and never look back ,
Yesterday I forgot to mention how much I love you,
I wish you could've stayed longer ,
" I love you and always will "
Now thats a lie right there ,
I liked how you wiped the tears away from my face ,
Lets chase away our fears , and these tears.
This is a fight i refuse to lose, I love you more and I always will
Lets keep our relationship the way it is ,
<3

Short short shooooort blog .

You're the only one i'm thinking of ,
Lets kick time in the balls and run away <3

I wonder why we called it off ,

Was it me or was it you ?

... Obviously it was me :\

I'll love you forever and always <3

97th Post

Almost to 100 <3
.... anyways,
I hope you know that I cant live a day without you by my side,
I occasionally die on the inside,
Hopefully I dont have to die anymore,
I want to be the one you wrap your arms around, the person you can tell everything to ,
Lets act like we are retards in love <3
I thought you lost the trust and love completely ,
But I guess you didnt.
Sometimes you cant have everything back to the way you want it to be ,
I'll love you until you hate me ,
Our love was strong,
Lets grow that strength back please ,

♥

You said you're going to be right beside me when the hard times come ,
You truly mean that.
People say lots of things but dont mean it,
Hopefully you mean everything you say
I told you my secrets,
Some secrets i've never told anyone else
Please keep them safe with you,
Where do we stand now?
You're my prince charming
I love you and I always will

Young And Stupid

All we need in this world is some love
I tried to hold the tears in ,
I couldnt
I want to hate you but my heart wont allow it ,
So I'll just go with the flow .
I love you , Thats why I always come running back
Looks are not everything , Personality is everything
I'll miss you more each and every second .
I love you but I hate you at the same time ,
Love beats the hate
You got it all ,
Don't walk into my life if you intend to leave me .
I hope you stay in my life forever,
But forever isnt enough
Are my mistakes that predictable ?
If stupidity got us into this mess, then why can't it get us out?

Is This The End?

If its really over , I had a great time.. Thank you
I'm dodging words.
Is this the end of you and me ?
One things for sure ,
I love you and always will
Stop shaking my heart around,
Hopefully we will last forever ,
But forever isnt enough time.
You make me feel alive inside,.
We are where we're suppose to be .
If I wasnt so young , stupid and restless .
I could just forget things,
Please just forget me like you already have.
I hope you'll be back in my life forever,
Please just stay in my life this time
I wish I could put All of my feelings into words
I wont let this slide, No not this time.
You're amazing.

If Only Everything Was Great

I'm falling apart too fast,
I wish you were still here to wipe my tears away,
I'm speechless ,
I could care less about the world right now.
I feel like i've been lost in a forest for too long ,
Just take my hand, lead me to a place where everything is safe & When you're here forever.
Get me out of this world .
I'm going to hold my ground. I've said everything I could.
I feel like i've been down the same road for months .
Talking to you is now weird,
You want to work things out, So do I ..
Its going to end up the same way
You not caring about me.. Again.

Am I ever going to bed enough for you ?
You're the pieces of my puzzle to my life,
Sometimes goodbye is a painful way to say I love you.
But i'm pretty sure you dont love me,
I dont want to say goodbye to you ,
The tears I cry is water, Once it goes down my face, its all about the feelings.
Thanks a lot

Shoot Me Now .

I'm not gonna cry anymore,
I think i'm out of tears
Theres a bullet stuck in my heart,
I've been wide awake for 2 days ,
My mistakes so predictable
Sorry for everything i'm not,
Someone just push me off a building , It hurts less than a broken heart.
If you dont care about me just say so ,
Theres no need to fake it.
Lets just move on with our lives already ...
I'm not strong enough to hold in the tears when I talk to you ,
....
I would rather die now then having to live a life in pain,
It takes two to recover a broken heart,
Having you to call me bud/buddy now its quite weird.
I'm not use to that,
Lets just go back and continue what we started,
I dont regret anything,
Everything happens for a reason
I'm not perfect nor near perfect,
I'm not everything you wanted... Just a piece of trash right ?
..
I dont even think i'm good for anyone :/
Just a piece of trash ... just like the way you think about me.
I cant think straight or walk straight.
I feel like i'm killing myself,
I cant breathe properly, since i cried to many times.
I CANT learn from my mistakes,
I thought you were different then the others.. I thought you actually cared,
Did you even care?
I'm not important for anyone to care about ,
thats alright.. i'm fine I guess.
Just fucked in the head ...
Someone just kill me now .
It hurts less than a broken heart,

We're So Far From Where We Started

We've gotten so far in this relationship ,
I wonder why you called it off...
I warned you I was NOT perfect in any way..
You were fine with that.. But I guess not
I was excited for tomorrow ,
Seeing your face..
But I guess you hated me so much you decided to call it off ,
You could have called it off while we were talking on the phone.
Someone please just shoot me now ,
It would be less painful than ignoring you
If I were to die tomorrow, You wouldnt even care.
I'm hitting my head on the table ,
Wondering why you dont like me.
Of course I got some shitty personalities...
I wish the wishes I make during 11:11 Am + Pm would actually come true ,
It would be unbelievable if it did.
Did you even at one point like me?
or were you using me ?
I would change the world for you ,
Do I have a broken heart right now?
Of course I do ,I'm sorry for everything i'm not
I wish I could be perfect.
I wish the world would stop for a few seconds,
I wish I could stop thinking about everything for one second.
I wish i was strong enough to hold these tears in
if I fall, if I die, know I lived it to the fullest
This is one of the days i'll recover from ,
This feels like a bullet went through my heart.
I miss you like crazy..
but obviously you dont care about me..
If you're wondering i'm already dead on the inside
on the outside , I have no emotions.
I feel like I cant breathe from all this shit,
I never regret anything,
I learn from the mistakes ,
I guess thats the last kiss i'll get from you .

Get Your Shit Together

If you're wondering .
No i'm not crying .. I'm not gonna waste my tears over you anymore.
..
You're a player like everyone else ,
Dont get me wrong, I still have feelings for you .
But it would be nice if we went back to being strangers .
We shared great memories , thanks .
Why should I cry if you dont give a shit about me ? .
Good luck with your life , Hope you have a successful one .
. You have no heart ,.
You have no feelings .
Its over now , The pain is still here haunting me
I'm fine . I could take it
What makes me laugh is that you broke up with me over the internet .
Thanks a lot,
You didnt even have the guts to say that to me face to face ,
Or ever over the phone
Nice one ,
Do I feel like shit right now ?
Of course I do .
I know i'm good for someone ..
Just havent met him yet ,
I thought I did... But I wasnt good enough for you .
Talk all the shit you want about me .
I dont give a fuck what comes out of your mouth
I'm just going to take a minute to breathe ,
I wont forgive nor forget,
Go tell all of your friends we're over , and start talking shit.
I thought we were going to last awhile ,
I guess not.
You dont like who I am , Thats fine I guess .
If you're reading this ,..
Dont think i'm rude ..
Its the truth
If you dont give a shit about me ,
I dont give a crap either ,
I still have feelings for you ., Dont get me wrong.
This breakup was actually funny .
You pretending to be your friend to call it off 2 times,.
nicee ,
You couldve told me to my face..

I've Made Mistakes That I Cant Erase

I think i'm going to make another mistake.
I cant stop it ...
I hate people with big mouths ,
I'm thinking about calling it quits...
Each time I see you ,You make me Forget the bad things
...


oh great,
Here we go again..
The thing is.. I dont give a shit this time.
I still care about you .
But just a lot less now .
I'm pretty sure your friends didnt send those msgs ,
I'm pretty sure it was you .
Stop blaming everything on your friends .

Short blog.

AS long as I feel you holding on , I will try
You have entered my heart , so please dont leave
Another day passes and I start to miss you more
we havent seen eachother in a few weeks,
You've been busy with your friends... & i've been busy waiting for you .
I love you .

Sorry for the short blog,
I have a stupid Eqao to run to .

Lets Walk Till We Cant Feel Anything ,

Sure, I saw your face..
The first few minutes was sorta shit ...
We had nothing to talk about and it seemed like you dont like me at all ,
It seems like I do all of the talking ,
I must confess ..
I was going to break up with you ..
But then you reminded me how much I love you ,
I'm still confused ,
My mind is telling me not to keep you , But my heart is beating me up & yelling for me to keep you ,
I guess I should live each day like its my last.
Seems like you still dont care as much for me ,
For the first 30 minutes , I didnt care for you ..
You showed me that you cared , you showed me that you loved me.
Therefore , I'm starting to love you
& I know love is a strong word & it gets thrown around alot ,
But I rarely say I love you ..
I say it whenever I mean it .
I wonder where I would be now if I had not met you ,
I wonder where our relationship would be if I never told you I like you ,
oh man..
I should just take a second to breathe ,

Goodbyes Are Sounding Way Too Familiar Today

..
My mind does not agree with my heart,
I dont know what to do .
Either way i'll regret it.
I will treat you the way you treat me ,
Which is shit ...
I havent seen you in a few weeks ..
I miss you're smile , I miss your hugs & kisses .
Trying not to care for you is the hardest thing ever .
Sometimes I have to let go of the ones I care the most about ,
why should i make an effort to talk to you if you dont .
I care about you way too much ,
Just start worrying about everything when I start to walk away from everything.,
Its hard to forget someone when you spent the greatest memories with them .
If only I had you forever,
People tell me to take one step at a time,
why cant I miss that step and start to fly?
Please get your shit together ,.
I wish we didnt have our exams,
I'm sorry but its over now,
I wanted to see you today so I could give you another chance .
And so you could make up for what you did .
.. Blew me off again ,
If you truly loved me you would've walked out of your house and came to see me
I bought all of your lies,
I dont know what I would do now.
My heart is telling me to the opposite of my mind.
I cant handle it .
Just come back to my heart :|

Fuck The World

Cut the crap
What do you want me for ,
Lets be honest.
I dont fool around about relationships
You better not be a player ,

I'm fed up with shit.
The words " I Love You " Mean nothing to me .
Those are just words.
But you dont care about my feelings right ? So fuck my feelings .. correct?
Time to get my shit together ,
Screw the feelings ,
I'm leaving them behind.
If you're just going to break my heart , please leave
All I need in my heart is love ,
Nothing but love
I wonder what would've happened if I didnt make that phone call ,
I'm about to knock down my door.
To much emotions that I cant get out .
I have to stop thinking ,
I've been thinking the whole day & I've got a headache .
Save me from this world i'm in , I'm sinking
Amaze me and i'll be holding on forever
I'll be holding onto this relationship for life ,
I'm about to scream ,









FIFAAAAA .
BRAZIL + ITALY <3 .

Sorry for everything i'm not ,

Sorry for everything i'm not ,
I know you dont love me but I still love you
Did you even like me?.. Or was this all a joke ,
I wonder if you even notice that i'm dying on the inside
theres nothing surgery can do .
you broke my heart into two ,
Thanks for the great memories
What did I do wrong ? Are you ashamed of me ....
Do you like to see me suffer ?
I never said it was over ,
I felt like it was over , I stopped caring because you stopped .
I'm pretty sure you dont care what I do ,
I'm done with ignorance ,
I need to get up and get out of this break up .
I wish I could lay down and forget about everything
I know you dont care if I live or die ,
I still care so much about you ,
you can just get up and live life normally since you dont give a shit about me
But unlike you I have feelings ,
And my feelings are for & from you .
Dear friends, Please excuse me :$.
I dont give a shit about anything ,except for you,
I wonder if you lied to me ,
I wonder if you even cared about me .
I'm sick and tired of this voice in my head screaming
I'm about to explode ,.
I knew you never liked me , You liked someone else ,
I wonder where I would be right now if I did not meet you
But i'm glad I did .
Good luck with your exams while I fail all of mine ,
I dont give a shit about school right now .
Trying to repair a broken heart is harder than it seems.

....

Thanks for the memories ,
Had a blast .
wish this couldve lasted longer
Everything happens for a reason ,
I know i'm good for someone ..
I just havent found that person yet
Sorry I cant be perfect ,
What did I do wrong , :|
No point in trying in anything anymore

Vodka! Vodka !. :/

SOUTH AFRICA AND FRANCE ARE MOVING FORWARD ,


.. :\
I think i'm going to explode ,
My family is fucked in the head,
you're slowly fading away
I feel like the words I love you dont mean anything anymore ,
I'm tired of trying,
I know you care deep inside,
Its hard for me to tell myself you do when you dont even show it
I have feelings.
I dont know if you do .. but I sure do .
& I have a lot of them.

Take Me With You

I love you with all my heart ,
I cannot think straight
I'm amazed I can even talk to you
You dont know how much it kills me ..
Excuse my rudeness ... but :$
I know we all have our exams ,
But dont use that as an excuse..
I'm pretty sure you can still have time for me .
I'm scared ..
Fear is my weakness ,
I'm afraid to go on .. What if you break my heart again ...
If you say you love me , show it ..
I hope you're not cheating on me.. I hope you are not a player,
I hope I dont get hurt to badly .
It takes me for awhile to get up ,

Im Done With This Crap

I swear on my fucking life you dont give a shit about me anymore ,
You sure show it .
._.
I'm starting to care less about you now ,
I'm going to stop worrying , I'm not going through this circle again >.<
If you care about me , show me you care.
Dont blame it on anyone or any thing ,
you're going to lose me.
Make up for everything you've done .
All the lies & all the shit is .... SHIT ?!. I'm done with this crap
Stop telling me lies .
Sometimes I wish I could wake up to a good life ,
Without worrying about things..
You use to be my savior
I havent seen you in awhile ,
I havent heard your voice in awhile ....
I'm starting not to care , Since you dont care .
Start showing it before I stop showing it .
Love is 4 letters , but so is shit
I'm not going to cry over you like I did for the other guys ,
I've gotten stronger .
People say I have a cold heart , But no I dont . I'm sick of this bullshit.
I feel like you're gone ,.
You dont even know how much I love you ..
Well .. use to
Dont cry over me because i'm not worth your tears,
There is so much love in me .
Just not for you...
My heart is beating slower & slower ,
I need your love .
You got so much love in you but probably not for me.
I'm surprised we dont talk anymore
Do you even take our relationship seriously ?
was this a joke ? , you going out with me .
I sure do take this seriously.
You dont even know what half of my emotions are ,
If you dont give a shit about me
then just leave,
I'm sick of everyone trying to be my friend or more then friends but they end up walking out of my life
I have so much hate in my heart and no room for love ,
I'm sorry
I dont want us to be over ,
but you dont even like me at all .

I'm thinking about other things I heard today ,
I cant help it , I've got to many issues .
Do you know how much I think about you ?
I convinced myself I am fine .
Which I am not .
if you have no feelings for me .
Just tell me to my face .
I'm fine with that .
better then living a life where i worry every day
and sit in pain . :$.
please someone get me outta this stupid shitty hole.

I'm So Over It

...
You're slipping away,
You dont like me .. And thats okay , No need to worry
I'm fine.
Perfectly fine
There is something stuck in my heart.
I think its fear,
One things for sure , You dont have to worry
Everyday & Every night , I cannot stop thinking
I wonder if you cried about me :$

If I Had You

I have you & thats all I need ,
Am I the type of girlfriend that gets annoying ?
Whats wrong with me :$
faaak.
If only I can drop the emotions
I wonder what would've happened if I didnt meet you,
You're always on my mind .
.
I dislike blogging .

Short blooog.

I love re-reading our conversations,
I stay up late at night thinking about you <3
I wake up thinking about you
You're always on my mind
I'd do anything for you
I cannot wait for summmeeeeer. <3
I love you,

You Got So Much Love In You .

Someone save me ,
& I'll be holding on for life.
I took a chance , And I fell ,
Everything feels wrong
I dont know how i'm exactly suppose to feel ,

ADHSOUHDAUIDHSAIUDHIUSADSHDIUASDHSDA .
Screw this blog . :| .

Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck FUUUCCCCK .

Yet again another broken heart .
Sick & tired of everything ,
I'm finding EVERYTHING out in the hardest way
I dont want to know anymore
Just be honest with me ,
...
Take that back,
I dont want you in my life .
I'm having regrets
I didnt mean it to end this way ,
I struggle to move on :/

I'm scared for another broken heart..
I really dont give a shit about anything right now ,
I'm just somebody who cares ...
Still confused..
This was all for nothing ,
I feel like strangling myself ,
I wonder if you think about me the way I think about you ,
Have I ever come across your mind?
Silence means nothing to no one but me ,
Every second with you is heaven ,

I could sit here in silence for hours and hours ,
I think alot ,
I feel destroyed... I feel like A bullet went through my chest..
..
Fuck this blog . :|

I Could Use A Wish

I better find your love ,
I need your heart
Lets put a smile on our faces & walk into space
I love how you treat me <3
I have thought about forgeting you ,
Trying to let you go is the hardest thing ever & I wouldnt want to try
You make me smile in every way
I love how you care about me
I love you more then you could ever love me.
I feel like we're fading slowly away ,
I wish I dont have mixed emotions for you
I feel confused, I'm not sure if I love you anymore
You dont show it, So why should I ?
We ignore each other during school hours & it kills me
When we hang out alone, it feels like a whole new you
You said to keep us a secret, I feel like i'm invisible when im near you
I trusted you & I still do .. Just a little less....
I try not to disappoint you
You make me care about everything & Everyone
Everyone has immature friends,
Im confused,
What i'm feeling is mixed emotions ,
Love, Revenge & Hate.
I told you ..
I got some stupid mixed emotions

I Dont Want To Know

...
Just stop right there ,
Someone save me from this broken heart
I'm just a kiss away .
Be honest...
Is this what you wanted ?
I can barley move ,
Lets pretend everything & everyone is alright .
Im a warrior at heart .
I feel like I'm going to explode,
I have to much emotions for you
I feel my emotions inside . Therefore I usually burst out on people
Fuck this ....

Being Right Takes To Long

Why am I always wrong ?
I'm sick of people feeding us lies ,
I'm use to the hate in the world , Its hard to get use to the love .
Tell me you will stay forever
I may not know the answer to everything, But lets figure it out all together
Remember this forever, I Love you
Summer will fade quickly ,
Lets make this summer a memory .
I count down the days until we can see face to face ,

Forever Together

We will be together forever ,
I cannot wait to look at your eyes & say I love you ,
This night is all we have ,
Sweet dreams that wont come true , i'll leave it all for you
Lets make a run tonight .
We're blinded by the lies .
Whatever you do something stupid , I'll do the same
I'll save you from everything & blame everything on love
You're my answer to everything <3
I'm waiting for a kiss in the rain :]

I love you :D <3


---- Wont be blogging for awhile
So suck my dick <3

I Better Find Your Heart

I cant breathe ,
I'm holding in the air inside of me
I'm broken & shattered again .
I dont know what I want ,
I'm confused in this big world
Stop feeding me lies, I've been played to much
I cant get over you
I like this feeling in my chest ,
My heart beats faster when I think about you
You make me so crazy <3
I need you here tonight ,
I'm drowning when I close my eyes ,
The story fades to black and white ,

I'm Crazy In Love

I cant stop thinking about you . I'm just crazy in love <3
You drive me crazy ,
My heart is a never ending road
You've got so much love in you.
Save me from the person i've become.
i'm sinking .
I'm amazed of what you can do
I took a chance and a fall
Amaze me & I will be holding on for life .
Bring me back to where I belong ,
I'm lucky to have you .
I'm with you & thats all that matters ,
Lets sit under this tree forever
We share a wonder ,
I'll sleep with you under those covers ( HA. RAPE <3)
The rest will come when it comes along,
I'm thinking about a lot of other things ,
I cant help it , I've got to many issues
But lets keep on reaching for the sky ,.
My mind wonders off from time to time
All is fine when i'm with you .
We all have our different things .
I love you , Forever & Always

Lala?

Im A mess with those words ,
I thought I was strong enough to hold the tears in ,
I was .. up until you said " Whats wrong ? "
The tears started to drop down on my face rapidly ,
You had to leave ,
You said you would stay for another few hours.
"Bros before hoes "

I get it , But i'm not a hoe .
I feel that you're ashamed of me .
You wouldnt tell your friends you're dating me .
I get that your friends are immature .
But you make me think a whole lot .
kaay fuck this blog
Love you Forever & Always <3

I've Been Waiting For Hours

IT feels just GREAT that you blew me off .
we're fading away quickly .
Is it me or is it you ?
I'm freaking out .
I've looked in the mirror to see whats wrong with me , & i'm guessing its everything
If you want me to stay I will ,
I wanted to tell you my secrets .
I wanted you to know you're my everything
Just let me go
Cant you see i'm trying my hardest ?
I dont care if we just met up & made out
I've played that to many times
I just want to know when is my last chance ,
It seems like i'm at my worst when you're at your best
Could you show me its easy to breathe ? :|
You're not making this easier , & i'm finding it hard to believe that you like me .
I love you .. But you dont like me .
When i'm with you I feel needed
I think i'm falling in love , but you're not here .
If only you knew how much you mean to a girl like me.
The world is spinning around to fast ,
I'm just A girl in love .


Sorry if my blog sucks ,
I havent had much sleep lately

Just Take Your Time

Please just show me your feelings,
I feel you're loving me a lot less .
I miss you more than you could ever miss me .
Run away with me ,
What next? Why dont you just surprise me
Your skin is so soft I want to feel your heart beat.
I must stop hanging on .
I know I worry to much about you & not care about myself
but thats what I do <3
I'm hoping that you remain the same

I Will Always Love You

You dumb ?<3
I wait until 11:11 Pm Passes so I could make a wish ,
And yes , I do wish for you
You left me thinking tonight
Did I say something wrong?
Did I do something to make you feel this way?
I keep on refreshing my facebook to see if you messaged back,
I love you and its true
The world is ours,
I'd do anything to make you happy
You are all I need
I'm just a girl who worries a lot
I wonder how much you think about me ,
I love you .
Words cannot express how I feel about you
especially over this stupid internet,
I need to see you.
I LOVE YOU
<3 :] I know you're reading this ;) now stop it ♥

Oh, Its you

No one can stop me, so i'll whisper softly the sun may shine today but reach here and feel the rain
I was looking for an escape the only one I seem to find is you
Everything I said, I meant
On the day you left me standing there You walked away and looked back with a tear
I remembered the first time our lips met,
you leave me with a smile on my face everyday
You give me a big smile each and every second
I miss your lips but mostly , I miss your personality.

Your Wish Is My Command

I want to be yours forever ,
I miss your smile , lets just smile forever
Lets just sit in that park forever & beat time.
I might be a crazy kid but I believe in true love & second chances ,
I'm not perfect, no one is
I'm glad I met you this year
I would take pain for you any day & everyday
I cannot think straight when I'm with you I get lost when you kiss me
Are you going to drop the bomb on me yet?
I understand the rule of " Friends first"
you knew your friends longer than me, we have known each other for one year,
You're really sweet
Love is in the air , We just have to take it in
I might be scared of the world but I know I'll get through everything with you by my side
We haven't known each other for long , But we shared the best memories
we have lots in common
You make everything alright , You make me feel safe
I feel like you're the only one who can understand me
I miss you,
I'll always love you as long as you love me ,
I might be fucked in the head.
But I love you & im just a kid in love
.....
Stop reading this .
I'm just screwed in the head,
At 11:11 I wished for you ,

I Wont Kiss & Tell

shut up with the bad news ,
I dont know where i'm going & I dont know anything
All I know is that I love you & I would fight the world for you ,
You dont have to worry,
Please dont forget me
I'm falling for you to fast
It takes a second to fall in love ,
It takes forever to forget the memories
You have the most amazing smile,
I want to be in your arms
I havent seen you in awhile,
I miss you even more each second . I'm waiting for it all
I know i'm young But i'm just a kid in love

Time Is Wasting

Every time we kiss I cannot think straight ,
You stole my heart & You're welcome to keep it
Please take my hand and lead me to the good things ,
We're headed for disaster ,
I wish we could just disappear from here
I feel like i'm home alone ,
not answering the phone , ignoring everyone in sight
Doing my own thing .
I'm beginning to think i'm going to be alright
Lets blow the candles out
I can hardly sleep ,
I sit up at night thinking about what I did wrong ,
I've got nothing to hide ,
Was it something I said ? or is it just me ,
You're amazing & its true
Yes it sounds crazy but its true

I Have To Breathe & You Cant Take That Away From Me .

I would do everything for you,
Told you my secrets my biggest fears ,
My biggest fear is losing you,
As long as I can feel you holding everything is alright
All i'm asking from you is trust & a little care ,
Tell me if i've done wrong ,
I hope i'm not wasting my time with you ,
You're so impossible.

Love is all I need,
When i'm with you, every bad thing has gone
You are everything I ask for ,
Take me with you or else I will start to miss you like crazy ,

I'll Be Free

I cannot wait until summer.
A whole new start
I'm trying to take a breath without worrying
I'm trying my hardest not to care but this isnt working
They're trying to tear us apart
I'm lacing up my shoes , getting ready to run away from all of this
They will tear us apart if you give them a chance.
I know for a fact i'll fight for you in every way
I'm tired of everything
Mostly , People breaking me
I have gotten stronger , still weak
Help me out this time .,
Please give me your hand & Take me away
Lets hide our feelings,
Its not like you care.. You're amazing
You're the first guy to make me this happy & you actually have a heart
i'm guessing i'm not worth a second of your time

Trying to hide emotions,
I hope i'm doing the right thing.

Its All Over

I feel like i'm going to explode ,
You probably like someone else
Why would someone like you like me ?
Thats really stupid of me to think that someone actually liked me ,
I have to stop falling hard .
I have to let go from the past & start a new one
The last 3 days i've been in heaven
I dont deserve to be in heaven
Nothing feels like home
the hardest part is living is the bad memories .
I know i'm good for something .
But I dont know what ,
I must forget my life I have that gut feeling that i'm going to hell
I got no sleep ,
I;ve got weaker and weaker ,
I dont learn from my mistakes
You're probably hanging out with someone else and making out somewhere
I believe you're not a player but somewhere in my heart feels there is worse in you
I cannot live without you
The older I get the harder I treat myself ,
I dont know if you're friend tried to break us apart or either it was you
I dont forget anything
I cannot breathe, I'm still standing strong
It takes a few seconds to build trust when i'm with you ,
it takes one second to take it all way
The hardest part is everything
You dont like me at all do you ?
We had the best afternoons together
Just tell me what I did wrong ,
was it me ? of course it was . No one likes me
Im not going to get emotional , I'm gonna try to hide it all way
Let no one know .
Lets just put on some fake smiles and live each day like its our last ,
If I were to die tomorrow , you wouldnt even care.
My heart is very fragile ,
Dont break it please.
All I can do is beg, but I wont i know for a fact that i'm better than that .
I know you're not alone .
You have always got me even though I may not have you
You're the first boy that actually cared this much about me
I wonder what i'm good for .
I'm not going to cry
I am going to TRY to stay strong ,
You got me worried ,
but thats all i can do
I can live without you but I would be miserable

I Cant Walk A Straight Line

This week has just been the BEST week ever ,
I assumed wrong,
You actually like me,
Lets just hope nothing and no one will tear us apart,
I'll give you everything i've got .
Refuse to be forgotten .
You're my prince ,
We're fighting time ,
Dont let me go & I wont let you go

You know all of my secrets & I know all of yours ,
I cant stop talking to myself ,
You're all I think about ,.
I'm lost without you
Tonight is going to be different ,
From this moment on , I shall be tough .
Some day i'll know what to do ,
For now i'll just sit here in silence thinking about everything.
Lets turn off everything and sit in silence .
Did you take off while I was gone ?
I'm coming home and I want to know if we're falling apart .
I gave you everything you asked for .
You were talking to her while you were messing with me .
Cant understand but i'm slipping away .

Our Love Is Fading Away

Take my hand and we will run away ,
You said to keep us a secret ,
I think you're ashamed of me.
I like you , you probably like another girl..
What can I say ,
Wont you just come this way
I've lived in the pain .
I'll start a new start
No more mistakes ,
I came , You left
If only I could show how I really feel ,
Lets keep those chances rolling
I thought you said no one could break us apart ,
but clearly someone has already done that .
Love is fading quickly ,
I'm just a kid in love .
I wonder why I cant sleep at night ,
Just like the rest,
Goodbye .. Get out of my life .
When I close my eyes , I always think about you .

Lets hope ,

Happy Victoria day <3
You make me smile every second ,
You're kisses are sweet.
I'm falling hard but i know you're there to catch me .
You found my heart <3
I gave you all my love , hoping nothing is going to tear us apart
You give me butterflies ,
I'm falling hard and I will never learn
He left me with a broken heart , but you fixed that with a kiss.
I worry about you WAY to much , but thats what I do ,
Care about loved ones
Tell me that you love me ,
Say it like you mean it
I must be dreaming if I have you
I miss your sweet sound already ,
This long-weekend has been great
Tell me that you love and everything will be alright <3
I hope you're the one ,
I fall to fast, It takes me awhile to get up and to forget + forgive ,
You better not be one of the other ones ,
I love you to death .

I Just Want To Be In Your Arms

You like me but I like him , but he likes her,

This week started off with shit,
It ended great because you were there ,
you make me smile and laugh ,
I'm falling in love...
Can we just take a big breathe and forget all the bad things in life?
I fell asleep thinking about you ,
You're always on my mind
You have unlocked my heart
We are just kids in love .


"Secret love, my escape
Take me far far away
Secret love, are you there
Will you answer my prayer
Please take me anywhere but here
Anywhere but here"

-- Mayday Parade.

Each day I talk to you more and more ,
I like you more and more .
You saved me from a broken heart ,
You gave me every reason to believe
I wont kiss and tell,
I'm just a kid in love .
Actions are stronger than words & you showed me that .
I'm saving my heart for someone is worth dying for , Which is you
( LIKE I SAID i'm just a kid in love )
The tears you cry only make you stronger,
As seconds move into minutes , into hours i cannot stop thinking about you and I
You're worth my heart .,

Dont Crush Me

I'm trying my hardest at everything ,
And the hardest part of everything is letting go .,

I must stop telling myself over and over again that I miss you , And that i actually have a chance. Because i dont ,
I changed for you , Havent u noticed that?

On the inside i feel like screaming ,
On the outside i feel like i'm invisible
Someone sing me something.
You were just a kiss away ,
I'm finding everything out in the hardest way,
You gave me every reason to believe ,
I got a bruised heart.
Please save me from this broken heart.
Our love is slowly fading away .
Someone save me from this love sick shit .
I'm trying to get up .
Words are not enough ,
I'm slowly getting pushed down .
You're worth dying for , I know i'm better than this .
I'm trying to save my heart for someone who leaves me breathless, And worth dying for .
I think thats you .....
I'm alright when everyone is gone. ( NOT )
Keep your heart open wide ,
Dont walk alone tonight
I promise I wont let you down
I'm just a kid in love .

Im hopeless

.. Havent talked to you in one week ,
Crashing and burning .
You're moving on & I'm slowing down.
I'm going down, plane crashing into the ocean,
I need you to hold me up .
Lets do this together , stop walking away .
You and I were meant to be,
Is there something wrong with me ?

Tell me what is love

Wanting to shut down .
I just want to be someone .
Sorry for the lack of blogging and the shitty ness of it .,
I'm sick and tired of everything.
Stop yelling and take a break .
I cant deal with haters anymore.
Stop yelling , Everyone has made mistakes.
I know for a fact that you made a bigger mistake ,
I hate it when you're all happy & one person could take it away in a second ,
I think about you every day,from your beautiful looks to your amazing smile
There is no word between us, and it tears me apart.
I wish I could close my heart to the things i dont want to feel ,
You walked out again ,
Well the hell will i ever learn ?
We dont look at eachother anymore , We walk past each other like we dont know eachother ,
I just want this to be simple,I just want you here with me to look into your eyes.
Why cant everyone hold onto their words? Because talk is cheap .
I lost the meaning for love .

*** . Wont be blogging for awhile.

I wish everything would pause

.
I'm overwhelmed, lost my breathe.
I make no sound when I speak, I'm invisible
I'm slowly fading away in the dark
Trust me dont pull away,
I cant feel my heart,
Stop breaking me into tiny pieces .
I can only go so far with my heart,
You've broken it into pieces you cannot repair
I'm warn out.
I cant reach those words. I'm tired of trying, lets give up and walk away from each other,
I wish i could walk away from you. I'm dying to live another life.
I have no strength or courage to say what i have to say.
I have no more tears to cry .

Gobble Gobble WHAAAT?

You've got nothing to prove, oh no wait yes you do. You wear it so well that we think it's true.


. YOU ME AT SIX♥
Did you notice that jealous minds think alike ?
Bwuhaha .
..
i shall not blog anymore,
I have no more brain Sorry guys .

Short blog .

I like it when you message me first♥.
I love it when you ask " Do you want to hang out?"
You can blame it on me if its any better
I should have kissed you then .
I'm staring at the mess I made,
All i want is your heart to myself♥.
There is a story behind everything,
I feed off of your love .

Crappy Ass DAY

You can blame it on my heartbeat.


Today is just not my fucking day..
Almost got bitten by a FAT FAT BULL DOG.
And I keep on tripping,
I made fool out of myself today
ASDASDSAHASDHASDKASDN .
Going to bed.
Good Day Mister Blog,

Words Cant Describe How I Feel

I'll give you everything to make you stay, How could i say no ?
Love is so strong, but you obviously moved on.
Can i get your lips to speak my name?
Im hung up on suspense The time and the moment just felt so right.
I like it when you talk to me, You make me smile like crazy.
I dont like to talk to you in person.
I freeze up and end up blushing like crazy.
You think i'm not weird but i really am .
I like it when we are just alone. I'm really pathetic ...
I know you feel weirded out but happy at the same time because you know someone out there actually likes you .
Everytime I close my eyes I regret not talking to you .
I know you like someone ele . you even said it yourself.
You make me blush, Every time i re-read our conversations it makes me happy & I smile. Im never sad anymore. Im afraid you're going to break my heart like everyone else.
Yet i'm confident that you're goning to make the sun shine on a gloomy day ,
I'm scared of getting hurt, I'm afraid you're a player.
Falling in love is worse than falling off a building.
When you smile and laugh , I automatically blush and smile, I might look away but i'm dying of happiness. Like i said . Love is strong but you make it stronger.
Just say you're mine . I might be crazy but, I like to keep things as a crush , i wouldnt want to go out, i'm afriad of everything . You make me have butterflies, You're my life. I lived without you and now i cannot live without you . But in less than a month you changed me and my life. I miss you already. I feel like a jerk for ignoring you. But i freeze up. I must stop screwing up. I act like a loser around you ,
You obviously get weirded out, i look at you , you look away . When i look at you i start to smile when you look back and i start automatically blushing.,
The way i look at you , You could tell i'm a freak .
I am very weird and shy. I love it when I'm alone with you. I like it when we call each other names.
You seem like you're the answer for everything.

I'm Fine.

I haven’t slept in 3 days.

I cant take this i'm going crazy,
I'm a weird and confused girl ,
I take things seriously and i worry about the stupidest things ever,
I like to re-read our conversations when i miss you,
Which is every second of the day.
I smile when i talk to you or hear your name ,
I get pissed over nothing,
I cannot stand not talking to you for a second,
Each second i'm not talking to you or with you, i feel like a part of me has been eaten by some monster.
I told myself this year is going to be mine,
I'm not going to regret anything.
I wish i could call you and make you come over.
I wish i didnt have STRICT ass parents.
I wish my life was easy as A B C ! ;)..
I like it when you look at me.
I know you like her , but I like you , Its always like that ..
You need to stop flirting .
I like it when you put hearts in our conversations ,
I like it when we talk over the internet so i can take awhile to think and respond, When i'm with you i go speechless and freeze up and it makes it awkward .. But thats part of life right?
I know you're a nice person , I've known you for a few months and I already love you .
I'm trying my best to fit into your standards.
You might be a player , you might be rude , you might be everything i dont want you to be.
But i dont know anything about you .. My guts is telling me to not be scared..
But thats impossible. I'm scared to death , I could stand here for hours and ask questions, But I need to know myself first. As i was moved along the ocean i Realized we were sitting here for hours of silence.
You may not have seen the real world but i have .
Please dont let me go. I'll be here waiting by the ocean waiting for an answer.
You drive me insane. The silence means nothing to you but it means everything to me ,
Everything was a lie last year . I'm trusting you not to lie .
I've been hurt way to many times.
I stopped breaking down . You just repaired my heart,
The silence is killing me, I lie awake thinking of you, Another day has past without talking to you . It kills me.
I love the world but it will never be the same ever again,
Every time I think, I think a little more each time.
Say you love me and mean it .
The silence will set you free, Memories that take me back to everything.
Everything you said, everything you did , My heart is weak and my hands are shaking .
Be my cure already ,
I am awaken by the lonely-ness in this world . and the hate in this world ,
You're gonna burn me down right now ,
Just say whats really in your heart. I dont need your pity.
A promise is a promise ,
I'll keep it till i die.
I'm terrified of everything.If we go down together, lets just get back up TOGETHER. If not, thats okay with me because we are together and that is all that matters.
I keep on singing along to love songs, you can sing along too .
I'm asking you not to let go , But what happens if you're letting go already?
I'm really emotional when it comes to love.
Was i ever on your mind?
You know that I really like you , so stop being nicer for pity.
I dont need you feeling sorry for me.
I thought you were talking to me because you wanted to ,
Everything seems to come and go,
Please just stay forever.
Our conversation have no face,
I feel like i lost everything, But I'll be okay . Is that what you want me to say?
Its complicated, I'm begging for answers that only you can give me.

BY THE WAY ! .
.. this is what i do when i'm bored as fuck .
http://www.myspace.com/anewdivide

CHECK THEM OUT AND SPREAD THE WORD. <3.

Love Is So Strong♥

.. You're really killing me .
Once the weekend comes you forget all about me and end up hanging out with your friends.
well thats how i feel ..
I miss you like crazy already ..
I have things to do but i'll stop everything just for you .
I guess i have to get use to you always leaving .
..
I got use to it with the other guys already ..
People just need to stop walking out of my life... If you're gonna walk in it .. just stay in it .

ANYWAAAYS ! :)
But i'm still happy .
You're a first guy to ACTUALLY talk to me more and actually be nice to me..
Other guys act like fags and tell their friends : ' YOOOO THIS CHICK LIKES ME"
And shit like that .. thats a no no .

Love Like Woe x 3

Oh my fucking god.
I like this kid more and more.
Every time I talk to him i smile and never stop smiling ,
You make me blush like crazy ,
I feel so rude ,
I got hurt so much & i never learned from my mistakes .
Now i have . I just dont want to get hurt .... Even though you might not hurt me.

1. You visit their facebook page more then three times a day
2. Your heart skips a beat everytime their msn name pop's up
3. You stare at their display pictures
4. You continue to block and unblock them just to make sure they notice your online
5. You sit by the phone waiting for them to call you and you get mad when they don't
6. You find yourself staring at them when you shouldn't be
7. You "accidentally" find yourself around their house or wherever they are.
8. It takes extra long for you to get ready when you go to see them
9.You get jealous when they talk about the opposite sex.
10.You try to make them jealous so they will want you more
11. You randomly tell pointless stories about them to your friends
12. You laugh at all their jokes even when they're not funny
13. It takes you extra long to write on their wall or message them because it has to be perfect
14. You observe them so much you know some of their outfits and notice when they buy new clothes
15. You have a song that reminds you of them
16. You go to appear offline just to see if they are online
17. You find yourself doodling their name...sometimes with hearts
18. You daydream about them
19. You go out of your way to walk past their locker just to get a glimpse at them even if your late for class
20. You know what classes they have and when they have them even if they haven't told you
21. You always wait for them to say bye to you before you can log off
22. You get butterflies when you hear their voice
23. You find yourself stuttering when you talk to them
24. You do something embarrassing in front of them. i.e. trip, burp, say something stupid
25. They're the last person you think about before you go to bed, and the first person you think about in the morning.
26. You know when you see him with another girl and your blood rushes so fast.
27. You look at their profile constantly.
28. When you're on the phone with them late at night and they hang up, you still miss them even when it was just two minutes ago.
29. You read their Texts and IMs Over and over again.
30. You walk really slow when you're with them.
31. You feel shy whenever they're around.
32. When you think about them, your heart beats faster but slower at the same time.
33. You smile when you hear their voice.
34. When you look at them, you can't see the other people around you, you just see him/her.
35. You start listening to slow songs while thinking about them.
36. They're all you think about.
37. You get high just from their scent.
38. You realize you're always smiling when you're looking at them.
39. You would do anything for them, just to see them.
40. While reading this, there was one person on your mind this whole time.


I stole that off of this facebook group .
But all of these things are true .
You dont know how much i like you .♥

Love Like Woex2

I'm a retard that worries way to much ,
I shouldnt have told you that .
Wow i still feel weird as crap! We shouldnt have said a word.
You make me smile, I always get that bubbly feeling when im around you.
Last year & Beginning of this year i was in hell with relationships,i got hurt over and over, I never learned from my mistakes. I went all silent + hardly smiled, but now i have learned that no one could break me and that live each day like its my last.
I see everyone loved and together i try to ignore that but it eventually gets to me , Dont treat me weirdly because i told you how i feel about you ,Dont say i'm not bothered or weird-ed out Because i know you are, I wish i shouldnt have told you .
I like it when you smile and laugh , You always make me smile .
You never let me down. just be happy that i like you .
You're a great person to like. Im going to ignore you .... That sounds really weird But i'm a weird person . .. So what do you expect? :)


Can I get your lips to say my name ?
We only have one life .
The time is just wrong,... You're opening my heart to a whole new level .
I honestly regret everything, Now that i have told you its not really weird betweetn us., I try everything to forget what i have done.
Someone just sit on the beach with me and watch the sun go down.. Lets sit there and forget about the world
This world is confusing , But thats how life is right ?
.. Life is suppose to have bumps and mountains right ? .
You know what i mean .. :|
You're my everything. You're really sweet. Love is so strong , you taught me that .
Love is so woe.♥
( By the way . Go listen to that song its By The Ready Set)
I'm hung upof what to say , I freeze up when i'm with you , i tend to let the eyes talk .
I got caught by looking at you but i caught you looking back , I hate that weird moment.. I just usually give you a smile and a weird look. but i always end up looking back .
I cannot stop thinking about you . I wonder if i'm on your mind or at least WAS at one point.
I know i'm ugly and not your " Everything" but i'm willing to try ( even though i'll make a fool out of myself ) I;m pretty sure i'm bad at this and i end up making it weird but thats what i do . I cannot stop smiling .
Love is strong but you make it stronger.
Would you say you're mine. i dont make sense. i got caught up in suspense .
This whole timing is just wrong. but hopefully everything will turn out all right .
I feel like i could talk to you about everything .
YOU make me feel secure . I dont need you to be more then friends with me ,
all i need is for you to be a friend.
If you dont need a friend i'm fine with that,
I know you like someone else , dont we all ?
I'm scared and nervous . But i'm ready to start a new life , i;m trying to forget the past and change.


PS .
I REALLY DO LIKE THE SONG LOVE LIKE WOE BY the ready set.
GO LISTEN TO IT . NOW !:)

You Can Say So Long.

I shouldnt have told you ,
I never learn from my mistakes..
This would be the 100th time i did something wrong .
I shouldnt have opened my mouth.
I would do anything to change what i have done.
I;m dying to live a perfect life,
A second chance at everything is all i'm needing.
i would do anything .
I wish i was good at everything,
I wish i was perfect. even though there is no one in the world that is perfect.
I wish i was good at photography, and writing.. and school..
i wish i was a different person.
I'm tired for looking for the right one.
I'm just going to live life to the fullest each day & see where that takes me. Lets punch the clock & walk away and discover the world.

♥ . I like it when you smile .

I got love like woe . ( Love Like Woe By The Ready Set )
The more i talk to you , the more i like you .
I love the way you talk ,
I like it when you flirt with me .
You make me smile like there is no tomorrow .
you make me tingle on the inside , i have butterflies in my stomach because of you ♥
You make me forget about the bad things in life ,
oh my god.
I'm scared as fuck
I dont want my heart to be broken again ...
I am confident about us .
but still scared and nervous .

I love you . ..

I'm still red as fuck .
Still nervous ..
I feel like skipping down the street while listening to Drake .
Guys are fags.
Except for you .
Fook . u better not be reading this . IF YOU ARE .
:) , Go suck a dick ♥

You're really sweet , you make me smile and blush .
I'm living life .
I usually try to forget about relationships .
BUT . ASHDIOASDHS.
..
I'll never stop smiling for you .♥

There Is Nothing Left To Say .

I'm thinking about other things I heard about today,
All this week and tomorrow.
I wish the world was mine.
Do you know i like you ? :|
I'm still nervous as fuck .
Tomorrow we'll be looking at each other face to face .
Someone pull me out of this mess,
I'm holding on for life.
Just save me now .
Hearts beating so fast I cannot feel it .
You got me acting crazy ,
Do you take this seriously ? Because it makes me crazy
I need your help . I got the faith in you .
You got your friends talking.
Break Your Heart By Taio Cruz
.. Shut up Mister Cruz .
I like the song .. not the lyrics.
LISTEN TO IT :|
He only says i'm going to break break your heart.
like shut the fuck up and go suck a dick
:]
Its not my fault if i say something stupid to you ,
Not my fault I cannot think around you ♥
WHAAAT ZEE FUCK .
:|
I cannot be nervous anymore
oh my.

Nevous But Ready To Fly,

I like you , You're just a normal boy who cant tell .
I like everything about you ,

The thing i'm scared most of is if it turns out badly.
Should i tell you or should i not ?
The rest of the year would be weird ,
I dont want to walk by you in the halls without saying anything ,
Can't you just take the last step for me ?
Like i said , If you jump i will jump too , Never looking back & blaming it all on love .
I was planning to kick off the New year with a new me .
I'm not going to be the shy one that never talks,
I'm not going to be the rude one , i'll be the nice one who everyone can turn to, like you.
Lets skip the nervous part where i ask you .
Lets fast forward to the part where everything is alright .
I'm tired of this feeling, I just want to know if things are going to be weird between us.
Fuck man. Shoot me ? i'm nervous as shit .
but its time to fly right?
You're almost gone.
Please stay forever and never let go .
We're flying through the night .
The nights getting better when you're by my side,
Dont roll your eyes rewind .
We wont say a word.
..
Did i mention how nervous i am ?
..
Im flying into the sky .
I better not be let down

ASDhoausdhoaushdsd .Whaat?

I'm actually doing homework for a change..
what the fuck is this?
I actually finished a book in one day ..
WHAT THE HELL.
- shakes head- .
what am i doing ?


I'm trying to live life to the fullest..
By reading books and doing homework? <-- ew no . what zee fook . o_O
I havent had any energy drinks in days and coffee in days ... Or pop :| .
I think i'm going to go crazy .
Blog . + me = Not going to work ouut . . .
I feel like skipping down the street and screaming random things .. Anyone wanna do that with me ?
Every day for the summeeer.
I'm truly going crazy. help.

Drake.♥

OH MY GOD ! ,.
No more blogging for me ..
BUT
All i have to say is .. I LOVE DRAKE. ;D
Listen to his new song if you haven't already.
" Over "
BUWHAHA . i love him. okay bye? [;

Still Looking For Mr. Right

Your skin glows perfectly, you are perfect on the inside, but on the outside you really treat me like shit. I’m just going to light a candle. If it stays on for to long, its not going to work for the next time.. Its just like us , I’m not going to give you chances over and over again. I will dim down like a candle and eventually fade away, I’m also like candy.. Sweet, sour, chewy, rough and sticky. Treat me right and you’ll only see the good side. I need to escape, just be my escape. I’ll never say never to you, Something’s we must not mention. Don’t let me go .. Just hold my forever. I won’t always come back accept the fact that you’re the king of everything. We have friends for everything, these days everyone wants to know how the story ends. I’m feeling sad & alone. I’m trying to figure out if I belong here or not. I got that feeling I cannot explain. I’m trying my best t put a fake smile. There’s no possibility if I have no friends you’re my shelter when it rains. I feel like these days have grown longer. Protect me from the pain and I’ll do the same. Don’t cheat on anyone because payback is a bitch. You told me not to get hurt, I didn’t until you fed me lies and killed me on the inside . For everything I did, I’ll blame it on my stupidity. When I’m sad & it rains, I like to walk in the streets alone to let go of my thoughts.
I need a shield to protect me from the pain. I’m just young and stupid. If we follow our hearts we would be together. Looking back at everything will make you feel stupid. Lets punch the click and walk away, you could say so long to everything. I might have learned the hard way but at least I did it my way. I have held on tight for my life, its time I let go. Safety has gone and come, It left and its time for me to not care, accidents are waiting to happen.
I hate myself for missing you. You stole my heart and broke it , every time I thought back when we kissed I cant think straight. All the games you played, All the promises you told me were all lies .
Everyone has to stop throwing valuable words around. Someday you’re going to look back and think what went wrong? Why was I a jerk? But mostly you’re going to hate yourself for breaking everyone’s heart . I’m falling fast, So fast not to care.