Been Waiting Too Long

How can you be friends with someone if every time you look at them it makes you want them even more? :/

Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak, sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go.
Its funny when you go though the year, day by day nothing seems to change, but when you look back, everything is different,
When one person is missing, it seems like the whole world is missing
If you ever stop loving someone,then you never truly loved them in the first place.
For every beauty there is an eye somewhere to see it. For every truth there is an ear somewhere to hear it. For every love there is a heart somewhere to receive it.
Errrrrrr.
I'm gonna live life the way it is ,

^_^

whatever happened in the past is done. you cant take it back or try to get it back, if it's meant to be it'll happen. shit happens and people change so you can learn to let go and move on.
Sometimes you just have to start over, to become a changed person..but your morals will remain the same.
Sometimes you have to get high, to see whats in front of you.
Sometimes you have to be yourself, to be recognized.
Its life, life is difficult, life is a journey.

Too many promises have been made ,
Another month has gone by and I havent slept,
Cant you tell something has got to change?
When the tears are gone i'll be whoever I want to be
I feel like i've been smashed up into pieces,
I wonder if you're worth it,.
Transitions are taking place,
I wonder how.
So dear I love him that with him, All deaths I could endure. Without him, live no life.
---- Romeo & Juliet. ♥

.. Boneless piece of me go rock hard. HAHA . ;)

Pass me another bottle of vodka & lets lay underneath the stars.
I know if it wasnt for you , I would tear this place apart,
I'm not worth your time,
I'm useless to you ,
I'll wait for you because I care.
Dont say this wont last forever .
You're breaking my heart,
I tried my best to care about you .
I could've been a better girl ,
I wonder why you walked away...
When you came back for a day we slipped apart, I'm a mess.
You can tell me i'm a wreck ,tell me i'm a mess Because I am .
I could have been better.. Way better .
I'll do anything you want me to do .
Keep your promises ,
I miss your heart beat ,
Take me to a safe place, I dont want to let go
If I could go back I wouldnt change a thing ,.
We made mistakes but we followed our hearts,
Everyone's screaming and saying i'm not going to get there.
At least I can dream.
Lets chase this night ,
Sometimes love cant make you stay.
Say what you cant say, Tell me the answer to anything.
You make my world disappear ,
How could we lose the love we had.
We live like a storm,
I'm still hanging on.
Inside or out you're still Beautiful
There is nothing that you can do to change my mind about you ,
You came without a warning,
I got my mind set on you , you are beautiful ,
Your personality caught my attention,
I got half way out of the door , I already have butterflies in my stomach ,

I'll quit crying & wipe the tears off of my eyes ,
I'll think about you later in my empty room.
This might be the last chance,
I'm not into goodbyes
All I want to know is why did you leave me ?
Lets make the nights longer and better,
I miss our fun days,
Dont go away again,
I wont forget our memories ,
Maybe we drifted apart but..
I love you ,
Always and forever

I Better Find Your Heart

I've seen love die, way too many times when it deserved to be alive
Sometimes I wonder why you act like that, I wonder if you even listen
I still remember when you had my back but now it seems like you've been more distant.
It takes time to change.
I'll give it my all but it still wont work ,
I love you ....

Somethings Gotta Change.

Good, better, best. Never let it rest. Until good is better, and better is best.
Don't wait for time, there will be no answer, if you wait too long
I can wait here for a million years .
I have nowhere to go
I'll be up all night
Its not too late ,
I'm going to live it up while i'm still alive.
Your dreams can smash in one second into pieces ,
Give it everything you've got.
You'll see i'm not crazy, Its just worth a fight
I'm blinking out saying no need to worry,

I'll tell you one last lie.

To Keep You Close To Me

Just give it a rest,
Stop caring
I'll tell you everything you want to know
Lets forget each other but remember all the memories we shared
I dont know who to trust
I'll show you what i'm about ,
Take a step forward
If only we had time to notice that we were wrong ,
Take the time to let it go ,
I have to step away and watch you go
You can stay if you want to , and i'll tell you how you've been special to me.
We are all tied up and wrapped around shit,
Lets shake everything until they break ,
With all the time is left, lets just forget
Lets light this city from the bottom up ,
Slow down and let your heart change your mind.
I want to get away and watch the seasons change ,
Its getting better and its all because of you ,
I wish I could go somewhere far away from here
Did you dream of me when the lights went down? :S
I like to risk everything,
Show me what you got.
I could say I love you with my fingers crossed,
I just want to be in your arms.
...
Half our life is spent trying to find something to do with the time we have rushed through life trying to save,

Tell Me Something Good.

I cant take it anymore,
Lets just stop and walk away from each other
I built this wall , you knocked it down.
I'm speechless
If only I could walk into a perfect world.
You still never answered my question.
Come amaze me like you always do,

I'm slowly moving forward.

You have my heart so please keep it safe,
I promise i'll keep yours safe,
I'm missing you like crazy,
I'm glad you're coming home tomorrow ♥
Loved you once, love you still,
always have,always will

Eh ,

I cant stop thinking about you ,
About what I did wrong.
I wish everything was okay.
It seems like you dont want to talk ,
Stay in my life , Dont walk out
Too many people have done that already.. Maybe a few more could walk out...
I feel like my heart dropped & it cant get back up
If only I wasnt young , stupid and restless .
If only I could forget this..
Please just forget me .

Falling Off A Building Hurts Less

Why cant I get over you ?.
Why cant I accept the fact that whats done is done,
You're a thousand miles away...
I'm fearless ,
Someone take my hand and walk into a new world with me.
My mind isn't caring but my heart is breaking & yelling at my mind saying I do care,.
Impatient & insecure
I make mistakes, I am out of control & at times hard to handle.
But if you can't handle me at my worst,
then you don't deserve me at my best anymore.
There's no way I can speak to you now,
whats done is done, Forgive and forget right?
someone just beat my heart so I dont fall into pieces again
I wish I could move on with my life just like that..
Once again.
I'm still in love with you ,

Whats done is done

Is it a crime to love someone to much ?
its not my fault I care about you too much
There is nothing left to say ,
Whats done is done,
I take awhile to get over things
but its alright
I just have to let go of things ,
Smile because it happened ,
I wont cry because its over,.
Everything makes me stronger
I told you if you were going to walk in my life dont walk out of it .,
but you didnt listen.. you obviously walked out without a look back
Stop trying to fix things , everything happens for a reason
Stop making things go back to normal,
whats done is done,.
I'm just going to get hurt again ,
I dont know about you but i have already died on the inside..
When the lights turn green i'm going as fast as i can and never regret anything.

I Feel So Ashamed

I cant get over you ,
I hate myself for loving you ,
Our relationship stings a lot.
what hurts the most is you lied.
You said you love me.. 1 minute later you break up with me..
how nice.
I bruise quickly, so please dont hurt me.
You're weird, and not perfect
but thats okay , i'm like that too
you know my ugliest side , when i'm sad you're always there to make sure i'm okay.
Im sorry we had to break apart ,
I'm sorry i'm not perfect.
I wont say anything at all .
I feel so ashamed , loving you use to be so easy.
I'll change everything you want me to change,
I want to make us perfect again,
Someone just take me anywhere but here.
Everyone is gone when you need them the most,
dont crush me,
I'm a dreamer. I wont let you down
I dont know if you feel weird talking to me ,
But it kills me .

lets stop , :S

Here we go again ,
I feel like there is a knife in my heart,
Its alright because I know someone else out there is better for you ,.
I'm not going to hang on ,
I'll just let it be,
I feel like i'm suffocating .
Dont make promises you cant keep ,
say things you mean ,
I've already died on the inside,
I have nothing to say ,
I have to clench my teeth & take a deep breath when you talk to me,.
I feel like my heart dropped and disappeared .

I will always love you ,
even though you hate me.

:$

I'm starting to care a lot more less,.
You're leaving in a few weeks,
havent talked in awhile...
thanks a lot for this.
I'm going to stop worrying and caring.


* I'm fucked in the head, wont be blogging for awhile

derjtdfgtuktmgbhb,. :|?

Cant you see that we're falling apart?
you're busy with your friends,
you dont even make an effort to hang out,
Thanks a lot .
I'm guessing this is a love hate relationship,
I cant handle it.
im busy worrying + thinking about you while you go out and have fun.
Behind my smile is a broken heart and behind my laugh, I'm falling apart
The chances of finding someone like you is one in a million,
What we have is worth fighting for,
Everything may not be perfect, But at least we tried.

Ahhh :\

...
I miss you like crazy already,
I've been waiting for a response,
I have been looking at my phone the whole day.. wishing you would call,
I'm guessing you're busy packing your bags ready to leave.
I think i'm going insane.

Lets Break This Chain

I'll do everything for you ,
I'm not a fighter, I'm a lover , But i'll fight for what I believe in ,
I believe in love .
Sit back and relax ,
I miss you like crazy, I havent heard your voice in awhile
I feel like attacking you with long hugs and kisses ,
I havent seen you in days,
I'll blame everything on our love
too tired and sore to think ,
I love you , Forever and always ♥

Let Me Simply High-five Your Face

So many shit talkers in this world,
Why waste their time talking shit ? .
they have no life ,
I find shit talkers funny , they amuse me
Dont EVER think I never have your back ,
I'll be the one you come to for everything,
Dont waste your time talking to fake ass friends.
Just forget about it , Look what she has become .
Live your life to the fullest ,
Dont make anyone stop you from what you want to do ,
Shoot for the moon & stop looking at the stars.
I'll tell you one thing ,
I'm here forever, I'll be the one who cares forever

Ehhhh..

...
I get that you're sad,
But i'm pissed...
I basically ran home and looked like a fool to hang with you .
Turns out you dont want to hang out .. thanks a lot .
I do care that you're sad & i'll give the world to you to make you happy.
I actually got dressed, I was waiting for your call .
I shouldnt be making a big deal out of this
And I wont..
Stop blowing me off at the last minute ,
You asked me if I loved you ,
Of course I do .
I would fight the world for you ,
Life is a crazy ride and nothing is guaranteed.
I"m scared of loosing you all over again .
Dont say You'll always love me , Cause I know you wont.
Say I love you if you mean it .
I think you dont understand how much I love you ,
no matter what I say
I'll always love you forever.

Its All Right .....

I have that warm fuzzy feeling when I think about you ,
Maybe our relationship isnt as crazy as it seems ,
Water & Fire wont mix.
I'm tired of the games and the lies , I just want you by my side ,
We are running back , :\
Stop breaking up with me ,
Stay here for good .
If you have dont intend to hurt me ,
How can I be so near and not see whats in front of me ? :|
I'm just blinded by love ,
Your love .
I cant tell you what it really is, I can only tell you how I feel ,
I thought it was going great , You had to call it off .
I would never hurt you , So whatever you want is fine with me ..
I'm dying on the inside over and over again ,
I love you way too much to leave you .
I'll be your escape to safety.
" I Love You "
I love the way you lie .

I Just Want You All To Myself

Lets kick , Scream , shout
Have you ever loved someone so much that you cant breathe ?
Call me crazy ,
Its too late to close my mouth .
I would call it quits but you're to great,
I'm going insane, I miss your voice .. I miss your kisses,
I cant hardly sleep, You're always on my mind
I think waaay too much ,
When love is not madness , it is not love .
This blog title might sound a little selfish ,
But I do want you all to myself
Lets walk away from this world and create our own world.
By the way , I couldnt sleep so thats why I am blogging
I love you , Forever and always ♥

You're My Superman ♥

If you dont understand my silence, You probably dont understand my words.
I cant take this i'm going crazy,

I'm a weird and confused girl ,
I take things seriously and i worry about the stupidest things ever,
I like to re-read our conversations when i miss you,
Which is every second of the day.
I smile when i talk to you or hear your name ,
I get pissed over nothing,
There is no point to hide it ,
I have no problem with you , If only you could read my mind
and if only you knew everything about me
Hopefully you wont break my heart again ,
Your love for me better not be fake ,
Shut up and kiss me <3
I miss your smile ,
I havent met anyone like you ,
I love you , There is nothing I hate about you <3
Its never too late to go back and fix things,

99th Blog Post Thing....! ♥

To love is a decision to be made every waking moment,
Please take my hand so we could run away ,
It hurts to love someone if they dont love you back ,
I feel like i'm lost and can never be found,
I need you by my side,
if you're going to leave my life ,
Might as well leave now..
Nothing makes a difference about the way i feel for you ,
You make me head spin,
Lets walk away and never look back ,
Yesterday I forgot to mention how much I love you,
I wish you could've stayed longer ,
" I love you and always will "
Now thats a lie right there ,
I liked how you wiped the tears away from my face ,
Lets chase away our fears , and these tears.
This is a fight i refuse to lose, I love you more and I always will
Lets keep our relationship the way it is ,
<3

Short short shooooort blog .

You're the only one i'm thinking of ,
Lets kick time in the balls and run away <3

I wonder why we called it off ,

Was it me or was it you ?

... Obviously it was me :\

I'll love you forever and always <3

97th Post

Almost to 100 <3
.... anyways,
I hope you know that I cant live a day without you by my side,
I occasionally die on the inside,
Hopefully I dont have to die anymore,
I want to be the one you wrap your arms around, the person you can tell everything to ,
Lets act like we are retards in love <3
I thought you lost the trust and love completely ,
But I guess you didnt.
Sometimes you cant have everything back to the way you want it to be ,
I'll love you until you hate me ,
Our love was strong,
Lets grow that strength back please ,

♥

You said you're going to be right beside me when the hard times come ,
You truly mean that.
People say lots of things but dont mean it,
Hopefully you mean everything you say
I told you my secrets,
Some secrets i've never told anyone else
Please keep them safe with you,
Where do we stand now?
You're my prince charming
I love you and I always will

Young And Stupid

All we need in this world is some love
I tried to hold the tears in ,
I couldnt
I want to hate you but my heart wont allow it ,
So I'll just go with the flow .
I love you , Thats why I always come running back
Looks are not everything , Personality is everything
I'll miss you more each and every second .
I love you but I hate you at the same time ,
Love beats the hate
You got it all ,
Don't walk into my life if you intend to leave me .
I hope you stay in my life forever,
But forever isnt enough
Are my mistakes that predictable ?
If stupidity got us into this mess, then why can't it get us out?

Is This The End?

If its really over , I had a great time.. Thank you
I'm dodging words.
Is this the end of you and me ?
One things for sure ,
I love you and always will
Stop shaking my heart around,
Hopefully we will last forever ,
But forever isnt enough time.
You make me feel alive inside,.
We are where we're suppose to be .
If I wasnt so young , stupid and restless .
I could just forget things,
Please just forget me like you already have.
I hope you'll be back in my life forever,
Please just stay in my life this time
I wish I could put All of my feelings into words
I wont let this slide, No not this time.
You're amazing.

If Only Everything Was Great

I'm falling apart too fast,
I wish you were still here to wipe my tears away,
I'm speechless ,
I could care less about the world right now.
I feel like i've been lost in a forest for too long ,
Just take my hand, lead me to a place where everything is safe & When you're here forever.
Get me out of this world .
I'm going to hold my ground. I've said everything I could.
I feel like i've been down the same road for months .
Talking to you is now weird,
You want to work things out, So do I ..
Its going to end up the same way
You not caring about me.. Again.

Am I ever going to bed enough for you ?
You're the pieces of my puzzle to my life,
Sometimes goodbye is a painful way to say I love you.
But i'm pretty sure you dont love me,
I dont want to say goodbye to you ,
The tears I cry is water, Once it goes down my face, its all about the feelings.
Thanks a lot

Shoot Me Now .

I'm not gonna cry anymore,
I think i'm out of tears
Theres a bullet stuck in my heart,
I've been wide awake for 2 days ,
My mistakes so predictable
Sorry for everything i'm not,
Someone just push me off a building , It hurts less than a broken heart.
If you dont care about me just say so ,
Theres no need to fake it.
Lets just move on with our lives already ...
I'm not strong enough to hold in the tears when I talk to you ,
....
I would rather die now then having to live a life in pain,
It takes two to recover a broken heart,
Having you to call me bud/buddy now its quite weird.
I'm not use to that,
Lets just go back and continue what we started,
I dont regret anything,
Everything happens for a reason
I'm not perfect nor near perfect,
I'm not everything you wanted... Just a piece of trash right ?
..
I dont even think i'm good for anyone :/
Just a piece of trash ... just like the way you think about me.
I cant think straight or walk straight.
I feel like i'm killing myself,
I cant breathe properly, since i cried to many times.
I CANT learn from my mistakes,
I thought you were different then the others.. I thought you actually cared,
Did you even care?
I'm not important for anyone to care about ,
thats alright.. i'm fine I guess.
Just fucked in the head ...
Someone just kill me now .
It hurts less than a broken heart,

We're So Far From Where We Started

We've gotten so far in this relationship ,
I wonder why you called it off...
I warned you I was NOT perfect in any way..
You were fine with that.. But I guess not
I was excited for tomorrow ,
Seeing your face..
But I guess you hated me so much you decided to call it off ,
You could have called it off while we were talking on the phone.
Someone please just shoot me now ,
It would be less painful than ignoring you
If I were to die tomorrow, You wouldnt even care.
I'm hitting my head on the table ,
Wondering why you dont like me.
Of course I got some shitty personalities...
I wish the wishes I make during 11:11 Am + Pm would actually come true ,
It would be unbelievable if it did.
Did you even at one point like me?
or were you using me ?
I would change the world for you ,
Do I have a broken heart right now?
Of course I do ,I'm sorry for everything i'm not
I wish I could be perfect.
I wish the world would stop for a few seconds,
I wish I could stop thinking about everything for one second.
I wish i was strong enough to hold these tears in
if I fall, if I die, know I lived it to the fullest
This is one of the days i'll recover from ,
This feels like a bullet went through my heart.
I miss you like crazy..
but obviously you dont care about me..
If you're wondering i'm already dead on the inside
on the outside , I have no emotions.
I feel like I cant breathe from all this shit,
I never regret anything,
I learn from the mistakes ,
I guess thats the last kiss i'll get from you .

Get Your Shit Together

If you're wondering .
No i'm not crying .. I'm not gonna waste my tears over you anymore.
..
You're a player like everyone else ,
Dont get me wrong, I still have feelings for you .
But it would be nice if we went back to being strangers .
We shared great memories , thanks .
Why should I cry if you dont give a shit about me ? .
Good luck with your life , Hope you have a successful one .
. You have no heart ,.
You have no feelings .
Its over now , The pain is still here haunting me
I'm fine . I could take it
What makes me laugh is that you broke up with me over the internet .
Thanks a lot,
You didnt even have the guts to say that to me face to face ,
Or ever over the phone
Nice one ,
Do I feel like shit right now ?
Of course I do .
I know i'm good for someone ..
Just havent met him yet ,
I thought I did... But I wasnt good enough for you .
Talk all the shit you want about me .
I dont give a fuck what comes out of your mouth
I'm just going to take a minute to breathe ,
I wont forgive nor forget,
Go tell all of your friends we're over , and start talking shit.
I thought we were going to last awhile ,
I guess not.
You dont like who I am , Thats fine I guess .
If you're reading this ,..
Dont think i'm rude ..
Its the truth
If you dont give a shit about me ,
I dont give a crap either ,
I still have feelings for you ., Dont get me wrong.
This breakup was actually funny .
You pretending to be your friend to call it off 2 times,.
nicee ,
You couldve told me to my face..

I've Made Mistakes That I Cant Erase

I think i'm going to make another mistake.
I cant stop it ...
I hate people with big mouths ,
I'm thinking about calling it quits...
Each time I see you ,You make me Forget the bad things
...


oh great,
Here we go again..
The thing is.. I dont give a shit this time.
I still care about you .
But just a lot less now .
I'm pretty sure your friends didnt send those msgs ,
I'm pretty sure it was you .
Stop blaming everything on your friends .

Short blog.

AS long as I feel you holding on , I will try
You have entered my heart , so please dont leave
Another day passes and I start to miss you more
we havent seen eachother in a few weeks,
You've been busy with your friends... & i've been busy waiting for you .
I love you .

Sorry for the short blog,
I have a stupid Eqao to run to .

Lets Walk Till We Cant Feel Anything ,

Sure, I saw your face..
The first few minutes was sorta shit ...
We had nothing to talk about and it seemed like you dont like me at all ,
It seems like I do all of the talking ,
I must confess ..
I was going to break up with you ..
But then you reminded me how much I love you ,
I'm still confused ,
My mind is telling me not to keep you , But my heart is beating me up & yelling for me to keep you ,
I guess I should live each day like its my last.
Seems like you still dont care as much for me ,
For the first 30 minutes , I didnt care for you ..
You showed me that you cared , you showed me that you loved me.
Therefore , I'm starting to love you
& I know love is a strong word & it gets thrown around alot ,
But I rarely say I love you ..
I say it whenever I mean it .
I wonder where I would be now if I had not met you ,
I wonder where our relationship would be if I never told you I like you ,
oh man..
I should just take a second to breathe ,

Goodbyes Are Sounding Way Too Familiar Today

..
My mind does not agree with my heart,
I dont know what to do .
Either way i'll regret it.
I will treat you the way you treat me ,
Which is shit ...
I havent seen you in a few weeks ..
I miss you're smile , I miss your hugs & kisses .
Trying not to care for you is the hardest thing ever .
Sometimes I have to let go of the ones I care the most about ,
why should i make an effort to talk to you if you dont .
I care about you way too much ,
Just start worrying about everything when I start to walk away from everything.,
Its hard to forget someone when you spent the greatest memories with them .
If only I had you forever,
People tell me to take one step at a time,
why cant I miss that step and start to fly?
Please get your shit together ,.
I wish we didnt have our exams,
I'm sorry but its over now,
I wanted to see you today so I could give you another chance .
And so you could make up for what you did .
.. Blew me off again ,
If you truly loved me you would've walked out of your house and came to see me
I bought all of your lies,
I dont know what I would do now.
My heart is telling me to the opposite of my mind.
I cant handle it .
Just come back to my heart :|

Fuck The World

Cut the crap
What do you want me for ,
Lets be honest.
I dont fool around about relationships
You better not be a player ,

I'm fed up with shit.
The words " I Love You " Mean nothing to me .
Those are just words.
But you dont care about my feelings right ? So fuck my feelings .. correct?
Time to get my shit together ,
Screw the feelings ,
I'm leaving them behind.
If you're just going to break my heart , please leave
All I need in my heart is love ,
Nothing but love
I wonder what would've happened if I didnt make that phone call ,
I'm about to knock down my door.
To much emotions that I cant get out .
I have to stop thinking ,
I've been thinking the whole day & I've got a headache .
Save me from this world i'm in , I'm sinking
Amaze me and i'll be holding on forever
I'll be holding onto this relationship for life ,
I'm about to scream ,









FIFAAAAA .
BRAZIL + ITALY <3 .

Sorry for everything i'm not ,

Sorry for everything i'm not ,
I know you dont love me but I still love you
Did you even like me?.. Or was this all a joke ,
I wonder if you even notice that i'm dying on the inside
theres nothing surgery can do .
you broke my heart into two ,
Thanks for the great memories
What did I do wrong ? Are you ashamed of me ....
Do you like to see me suffer ?
I never said it was over ,
I felt like it was over , I stopped caring because you stopped .
I'm pretty sure you dont care what I do ,
I'm done with ignorance ,
I need to get up and get out of this break up .
I wish I could lay down and forget about everything
I know you dont care if I live or die ,
I still care so much about you ,
you can just get up and live life normally since you dont give a shit about me
But unlike you I have feelings ,
And my feelings are for & from you .
Dear friends, Please excuse me :$.
I dont give a shit about anything ,except for you,
I wonder if you lied to me ,
I wonder if you even cared about me .
I'm sick and tired of this voice in my head screaming
I'm about to explode ,.
I knew you never liked me , You liked someone else ,
I wonder where I would be right now if I did not meet you
But i'm glad I did .
Good luck with your exams while I fail all of mine ,
I dont give a shit about school right now .
Trying to repair a broken heart is harder than it seems.

....

Thanks for the memories ,
Had a blast .
wish this couldve lasted longer
Everything happens for a reason ,
I know i'm good for someone ..
I just havent found that person yet
Sorry I cant be perfect ,
What did I do wrong , :|
No point in trying in anything anymore

Vodka! Vodka !. :/

SOUTH AFRICA AND FRANCE ARE MOVING FORWARD ,


.. :\
I think i'm going to explode ,
My family is fucked in the head,
you're slowly fading away
I feel like the words I love you dont mean anything anymore ,
I'm tired of trying,
I know you care deep inside,
Its hard for me to tell myself you do when you dont even show it
I have feelings.
I dont know if you do .. but I sure do .
& I have a lot of them.

Take Me With You

I love you with all my heart ,
I cannot think straight
I'm amazed I can even talk to you
You dont know how much it kills me ..
Excuse my rudeness ... but :$
I know we all have our exams ,
But dont use that as an excuse..
I'm pretty sure you can still have time for me .
I'm scared ..
Fear is my weakness ,
I'm afraid to go on .. What if you break my heart again ...
If you say you love me , show it ..
I hope you're not cheating on me.. I hope you are not a player,
I hope I dont get hurt to badly .
It takes me for awhile to get up ,

Im Done With This Crap

I swear on my fucking life you dont give a shit about me anymore ,
You sure show it .
._.
I'm starting to care less about you now ,
I'm going to stop worrying , I'm not going through this circle again >.<
If you care about me , show me you care.
Dont blame it on anyone or any thing ,
you're going to lose me.
Make up for everything you've done .
All the lies & all the shit is .... SHIT ?!. I'm done with this crap
Stop telling me lies .
Sometimes I wish I could wake up to a good life ,
Without worrying about things..
You use to be my savior
I havent seen you in awhile ,
I havent heard your voice in awhile ....
I'm starting not to care , Since you dont care .
Start showing it before I stop showing it .
Love is 4 letters , but so is shit
I'm not going to cry over you like I did for the other guys ,
I've gotten stronger .
People say I have a cold heart , But no I dont . I'm sick of this bullshit.
I feel like you're gone ,.
You dont even know how much I love you ..
Well .. use to
Dont cry over me because i'm not worth your tears,
There is so much love in me .
Just not for you...
My heart is beating slower & slower ,
I need your love .
You got so much love in you but probably not for me.
I'm surprised we dont talk anymore
Do you even take our relationship seriously ?
was this a joke ? , you going out with me .
I sure do take this seriously.
You dont even know what half of my emotions are ,
If you dont give a shit about me
then just leave,
I'm sick of everyone trying to be my friend or more then friends but they end up walking out of my life
I have so much hate in my heart and no room for love ,
I'm sorry
I dont want us to be over ,
but you dont even like me at all .

I'm thinking about other things I heard today ,
I cant help it , I've got to many issues .
Do you know how much I think about you ?
I convinced myself I am fine .
Which I am not .
if you have no feelings for me .
Just tell me to my face .
I'm fine with that .
better then living a life where i worry every day
and sit in pain . :$.
please someone get me outta this stupid shitty hole.

I'm So Over It

...
You're slipping away,
You dont like me .. And thats okay , No need to worry
I'm fine.
Perfectly fine
There is something stuck in my heart.
I think its fear,
One things for sure , You dont have to worry
Everyday & Every night , I cannot stop thinking
I wonder if you cried about me :$

If I Had You

I have you & thats all I need ,
Am I the type of girlfriend that gets annoying ?
Whats wrong with me :$
faaak.
If only I can drop the emotions
I wonder what would've happened if I didnt meet you,
You're always on my mind .
.
I dislike blogging .

Short blooog.

I love re-reading our conversations,
I stay up late at night thinking about you <3
I wake up thinking about you
You're always on my mind
I'd do anything for you
I cannot wait for summmeeeeer. <3
I love you,

You Got So Much Love In You .

Someone save me ,
& I'll be holding on for life.
I took a chance , And I fell ,
Everything feels wrong
I dont know how i'm exactly suppose to feel ,

ADHSOUHDAUIDHSAIUDHIUSADSHDIUASDHSDA .
Screw this blog . :| .

Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck FUUUCCCCK .

Yet again another broken heart .
Sick & tired of everything ,
I'm finding EVERYTHING out in the hardest way
I dont want to know anymore
Just be honest with me ,
...
Take that back,
I dont want you in my life .
I'm having regrets
I didnt mean it to end this way ,
I struggle to move on :/

I'm scared for another broken heart..
I really dont give a shit about anything right now ,
I'm just somebody who cares ...
Still confused..
This was all for nothing ,
I feel like strangling myself ,
I wonder if you think about me the way I think about you ,
Have I ever come across your mind?
Silence means nothing to no one but me ,
Every second with you is heaven ,

I could sit here in silence for hours and hours ,
I think alot ,
I feel destroyed... I feel like A bullet went through my chest..
..
Fuck this blog . :|

I Could Use A Wish

I better find your love ,
I need your heart
Lets put a smile on our faces & walk into space
I love how you treat me <3
I have thought about forgeting you ,
Trying to let you go is the hardest thing ever & I wouldnt want to try
You make me smile in every way
I love how you care about me
I love you more then you could ever love me.
I feel like we're fading slowly away ,
I wish I dont have mixed emotions for you
I feel confused, I'm not sure if I love you anymore
You dont show it, So why should I ?
We ignore each other during school hours & it kills me
When we hang out alone, it feels like a whole new you
You said to keep us a secret, I feel like i'm invisible when im near you
I trusted you & I still do .. Just a little less....
I try not to disappoint you
You make me care about everything & Everyone
Everyone has immature friends,
Im confused,
What i'm feeling is mixed emotions ,
Love, Revenge & Hate.
I told you ..
I got some stupid mixed emotions

I Dont Want To Know

...
Just stop right there ,
Someone save me from this broken heart
I'm just a kiss away .
Be honest...
Is this what you wanted ?
I can barley move ,
Lets pretend everything & everyone is alright .
Im a warrior at heart .
I feel like I'm going to explode,
I have to much emotions for you
I feel my emotions inside . Therefore I usually burst out on people
Fuck this ....

Being Right Takes To Long

Why am I always wrong ?
I'm sick of people feeding us lies ,
I'm use to the hate in the world , Its hard to get use to the love .
Tell me you will stay forever
I may not know the answer to everything, But lets figure it out all together
Remember this forever, I Love you
Summer will fade quickly ,
Lets make this summer a memory .
I count down the days until we can see face to face ,

Forever Together

We will be together forever ,
I cannot wait to look at your eyes & say I love you ,
This night is all we have ,
Sweet dreams that wont come true , i'll leave it all for you
Lets make a run tonight .
We're blinded by the lies .
Whatever you do something stupid , I'll do the same
I'll save you from everything & blame everything on love
You're my answer to everything <3
I'm waiting for a kiss in the rain :]

I love you :D <3


---- Wont be blogging for awhile
So suck my dick <3

I Better Find Your Heart

I cant breathe ,
I'm holding in the air inside of me
I'm broken & shattered again .
I dont know what I want ,
I'm confused in this big world
Stop feeding me lies, I've been played to much
I cant get over you
I like this feeling in my chest ,
My heart beats faster when I think about you
You make me so crazy <3
I need you here tonight ,
I'm drowning when I close my eyes ,
The story fades to black and white ,