Gobble Gobble WHAAAT?

You've got nothing to prove, oh no wait yes you do. You wear it so well that we think it's true.


. YOU ME AT SIX♥
Did you notice that jealous minds think alike ?
Bwuhaha .
..
i shall not blog anymore,
I have no more brain Sorry guys .

Short blog .

I like it when you message me first♥.
I love it when you ask " Do you want to hang out?"
You can blame it on me if its any better
I should have kissed you then .
I'm staring at the mess I made,
All i want is your heart to myself♥.
There is a story behind everything,
I feed off of your love .

Crappy Ass DAY

You can blame it on my heartbeat.


Today is just not my fucking day..
Almost got bitten by a FAT FAT BULL DOG.
And I keep on tripping,
I made fool out of myself today
ASDASDSAHASDHASDKASDN .
Going to bed.
Good Day Mister Blog,

Words Cant Describe How I Feel

I'll give you everything to make you stay, How could i say no ?
Love is so strong, but you obviously moved on.
Can i get your lips to speak my name?
Im hung up on suspense The time and the moment just felt so right.
I like it when you talk to me, You make me smile like crazy.
I dont like to talk to you in person.
I freeze up and end up blushing like crazy.
You think i'm not weird but i really am .
I like it when we are just alone. I'm really pathetic ...
I know you feel weirded out but happy at the same time because you know someone out there actually likes you .
Everytime I close my eyes I regret not talking to you .
I know you like someone ele . you even said it yourself.
You make me blush, Every time i re-read our conversations it makes me happy & I smile. Im never sad anymore. Im afraid you're going to break my heart like everyone else.
Yet i'm confident that you're goning to make the sun shine on a gloomy day ,
I'm scared of getting hurt, I'm afraid you're a player.
Falling in love is worse than falling off a building.
When you smile and laugh , I automatically blush and smile, I might look away but i'm dying of happiness. Like i said . Love is strong but you make it stronger.
Just say you're mine . I might be crazy but, I like to keep things as a crush , i wouldnt want to go out, i'm afriad of everything . You make me have butterflies, You're my life. I lived without you and now i cannot live without you . But in less than a month you changed me and my life. I miss you already. I feel like a jerk for ignoring you. But i freeze up. I must stop screwing up. I act like a loser around you ,
You obviously get weirded out, i look at you , you look away . When i look at you i start to smile when you look back and i start automatically blushing.,
The way i look at you , You could tell i'm a freak .
I am very weird and shy. I love it when I'm alone with you. I like it when we call each other names.
You seem like you're the answer for everything.

I'm Fine.

I haven’t slept in 3 days.

I cant take this i'm going crazy,
I'm a weird and confused girl ,
I take things seriously and i worry about the stupidest things ever,
I like to re-read our conversations when i miss you,
Which is every second of the day.
I smile when i talk to you or hear your name ,
I get pissed over nothing,
I cannot stand not talking to you for a second,
Each second i'm not talking to you or with you, i feel like a part of me has been eaten by some monster.
I told myself this year is going to be mine,
I'm not going to regret anything.
I wish i could call you and make you come over.
I wish i didnt have STRICT ass parents.
I wish my life was easy as A B C ! ;)..
I like it when you look at me.
I know you like her , but I like you , Its always like that ..
You need to stop flirting .
I like it when you put hearts in our conversations ,
I like it when we talk over the internet so i can take awhile to think and respond, When i'm with you i go speechless and freeze up and it makes it awkward .. But thats part of life right?
I know you're a nice person , I've known you for a few months and I already love you .
I'm trying my best to fit into your standards.
You might be a player , you might be rude , you might be everything i dont want you to be.
But i dont know anything about you .. My guts is telling me to not be scared..
But thats impossible. I'm scared to death , I could stand here for hours and ask questions, But I need to know myself first. As i was moved along the ocean i Realized we were sitting here for hours of silence.
You may not have seen the real world but i have .
Please dont let me go. I'll be here waiting by the ocean waiting for an answer.
You drive me insane. The silence means nothing to you but it means everything to me ,
Everything was a lie last year . I'm trusting you not to lie .
I've been hurt way to many times.
I stopped breaking down . You just repaired my heart,
The silence is killing me, I lie awake thinking of you, Another day has past without talking to you . It kills me.
I love the world but it will never be the same ever again,
Every time I think, I think a little more each time.
Say you love me and mean it .
The silence will set you free, Memories that take me back to everything.
Everything you said, everything you did , My heart is weak and my hands are shaking .
Be my cure already ,
I am awaken by the lonely-ness in this world . and the hate in this world ,
You're gonna burn me down right now ,
Just say whats really in your heart. I dont need your pity.
A promise is a promise ,
I'll keep it till i die.
I'm terrified of everything.If we go down together, lets just get back up TOGETHER. If not, thats okay with me because we are together and that is all that matters.
I keep on singing along to love songs, you can sing along too .
I'm asking you not to let go , But what happens if you're letting go already?
I'm really emotional when it comes to love.
Was i ever on your mind?
You know that I really like you , so stop being nicer for pity.
I dont need you feeling sorry for me.
I thought you were talking to me because you wanted to ,
Everything seems to come and go,
Please just stay forever.
Our conversation have no face,
I feel like i lost everything, But I'll be okay . Is that what you want me to say?
Its complicated, I'm begging for answers that only you can give me.

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Love Is So Strong♥

.. You're really killing me .
Once the weekend comes you forget all about me and end up hanging out with your friends.
well thats how i feel ..
I miss you like crazy already ..
I have things to do but i'll stop everything just for you .
I guess i have to get use to you always leaving .
..
I got use to it with the other guys already ..
People just need to stop walking out of my life... If you're gonna walk in it .. just stay in it .

ANYWAAAYS ! :)
But i'm still happy .
You're a first guy to ACTUALLY talk to me more and actually be nice to me..
Other guys act like fags and tell their friends : ' YOOOO THIS CHICK LIKES ME"
And shit like that .. thats a no no .

Love Like Woe x 3

Oh my fucking god.
I like this kid more and more.
Every time I talk to him i smile and never stop smiling ,
You make me blush like crazy ,
I feel so rude ,
I got hurt so much & i never learned from my mistakes .
Now i have . I just dont want to get hurt .... Even though you might not hurt me.

1. You visit their facebook page more then three times a day
2. Your heart skips a beat everytime their msn name pop's up
3. You stare at their display pictures
4. You continue to block and unblock them just to make sure they notice your online
5. You sit by the phone waiting for them to call you and you get mad when they don't
6. You find yourself staring at them when you shouldn't be
7. You "accidentally" find yourself around their house or wherever they are.
8. It takes extra long for you to get ready when you go to see them
9.You get jealous when they talk about the opposite sex.
10.You try to make them jealous so they will want you more
11. You randomly tell pointless stories about them to your friends
12. You laugh at all their jokes even when they're not funny
13. It takes you extra long to write on their wall or message them because it has to be perfect
14. You observe them so much you know some of their outfits and notice when they buy new clothes
15. You have a song that reminds you of them
16. You go to appear offline just to see if they are online
17. You find yourself doodling their name...sometimes with hearts
18. You daydream about them
19. You go out of your way to walk past their locker just to get a glimpse at them even if your late for class
20. You know what classes they have and when they have them even if they haven't told you
21. You always wait for them to say bye to you before you can log off
22. You get butterflies when you hear their voice
23. You find yourself stuttering when you talk to them
24. You do something embarrassing in front of them. i.e. trip, burp, say something stupid
25. They're the last person you think about before you go to bed, and the first person you think about in the morning.
26. You know when you see him with another girl and your blood rushes so fast.
27. You look at their profile constantly.
28. When you're on the phone with them late at night and they hang up, you still miss them even when it was just two minutes ago.
29. You read their Texts and IMs Over and over again.
30. You walk really slow when you're with them.
31. You feel shy whenever they're around.
32. When you think about them, your heart beats faster but slower at the same time.
33. You smile when you hear their voice.
34. When you look at them, you can't see the other people around you, you just see him/her.
35. You start listening to slow songs while thinking about them.
36. They're all you think about.
37. You get high just from their scent.
38. You realize you're always smiling when you're looking at them.
39. You would do anything for them, just to see them.
40. While reading this, there was one person on your mind this whole time.


I stole that off of this facebook group .
But all of these things are true .
You dont know how much i like you .♥

Love Like Woex2

I'm a retard that worries way to much ,
I shouldnt have told you that .
Wow i still feel weird as crap! We shouldnt have said a word.
You make me smile, I always get that bubbly feeling when im around you.
Last year & Beginning of this year i was in hell with relationships,i got hurt over and over, I never learned from my mistakes. I went all silent + hardly smiled, but now i have learned that no one could break me and that live each day like its my last.
I see everyone loved and together i try to ignore that but it eventually gets to me , Dont treat me weirdly because i told you how i feel about you ,Dont say i'm not bothered or weird-ed out Because i know you are, I wish i shouldnt have told you .
I like it when you smile and laugh , You always make me smile .
You never let me down. just be happy that i like you .
You're a great person to like. Im going to ignore you .... That sounds really weird But i'm a weird person . .. So what do you expect? :)


Can I get your lips to say my name ?
We only have one life .
The time is just wrong,... You're opening my heart to a whole new level .
I honestly regret everything, Now that i have told you its not really weird betweetn us., I try everything to forget what i have done.
Someone just sit on the beach with me and watch the sun go down.. Lets sit there and forget about the world
This world is confusing , But thats how life is right ?
.. Life is suppose to have bumps and mountains right ? .
You know what i mean .. :|
You're my everything. You're really sweet. Love is so strong , you taught me that .
Love is so woe.♥
( By the way . Go listen to that song its By The Ready Set)
I'm hung upof what to say , I freeze up when i'm with you , i tend to let the eyes talk .
I got caught by looking at you but i caught you looking back , I hate that weird moment.. I just usually give you a smile and a weird look. but i always end up looking back .
I cannot stop thinking about you . I wonder if i'm on your mind or at least WAS at one point.
I know i'm ugly and not your " Everything" but i'm willing to try ( even though i'll make a fool out of myself ) I;m pretty sure i'm bad at this and i end up making it weird but thats what i do . I cannot stop smiling .
Love is strong but you make it stronger.
Would you say you're mine. i dont make sense. i got caught up in suspense .
This whole timing is just wrong. but hopefully everything will turn out all right .
I feel like i could talk to you about everything .
YOU make me feel secure . I dont need you to be more then friends with me ,
all i need is for you to be a friend.
If you dont need a friend i'm fine with that,
I know you like someone else , dont we all ?
I'm scared and nervous . But i'm ready to start a new life , i;m trying to forget the past and change.


PS .
I REALLY DO LIKE THE SONG LOVE LIKE WOE BY the ready set.
GO LISTEN TO IT . NOW !:)

You Can Say So Long.

I shouldnt have told you ,
I never learn from my mistakes..
This would be the 100th time i did something wrong .
I shouldnt have opened my mouth.
I would do anything to change what i have done.
I;m dying to live a perfect life,
A second chance at everything is all i'm needing.
i would do anything .
I wish i was good at everything,
I wish i was perfect. even though there is no one in the world that is perfect.
I wish i was good at photography, and writing.. and school..
i wish i was a different person.
I'm tired for looking for the right one.
I'm just going to live life to the fullest each day & see where that takes me. Lets punch the clock & walk away and discover the world.

♥ . I like it when you smile .

I got love like woe . ( Love Like Woe By The Ready Set )
The more i talk to you , the more i like you .
I love the way you talk ,
I like it when you flirt with me .
You make me smile like there is no tomorrow .
you make me tingle on the inside , i have butterflies in my stomach because of you ♥
You make me forget about the bad things in life ,
oh my god.
I'm scared as fuck
I dont want my heart to be broken again ...
I am confident about us .
but still scared and nervous .

I love you . ..

I'm still red as fuck .
Still nervous ..
I feel like skipping down the street while listening to Drake .
Guys are fags.
Except for you .
Fook . u better not be reading this . IF YOU ARE .
:) , Go suck a dick ♥

You're really sweet , you make me smile and blush .
I'm living life .
I usually try to forget about relationships .
BUT . ASHDIOASDHS.
..
I'll never stop smiling for you .♥

There Is Nothing Left To Say .

I'm thinking about other things I heard about today,
All this week and tomorrow.
I wish the world was mine.
Do you know i like you ? :|
I'm still nervous as fuck .
Tomorrow we'll be looking at each other face to face .
Someone pull me out of this mess,
I'm holding on for life.
Just save me now .
Hearts beating so fast I cannot feel it .
You got me acting crazy ,
Do you take this seriously ? Because it makes me crazy
I need your help . I got the faith in you .
You got your friends talking.
Break Your Heart By Taio Cruz
.. Shut up Mister Cruz .
I like the song .. not the lyrics.
LISTEN TO IT :|
He only says i'm going to break break your heart.
like shut the fuck up and go suck a dick
:]
Its not my fault if i say something stupid to you ,
Not my fault I cannot think around you ♥
WHAAAT ZEE FUCK .
:|
I cannot be nervous anymore
oh my.

Nevous But Ready To Fly,

I like you , You're just a normal boy who cant tell .
I like everything about you ,

The thing i'm scared most of is if it turns out badly.
Should i tell you or should i not ?
The rest of the year would be weird ,
I dont want to walk by you in the halls without saying anything ,
Can't you just take the last step for me ?
Like i said , If you jump i will jump too , Never looking back & blaming it all on love .
I was planning to kick off the New year with a new me .
I'm not going to be the shy one that never talks,
I'm not going to be the rude one , i'll be the nice one who everyone can turn to, like you.
Lets skip the nervous part where i ask you .
Lets fast forward to the part where everything is alright .
I'm tired of this feeling, I just want to know if things are going to be weird between us.
Fuck man. Shoot me ? i'm nervous as shit .
but its time to fly right?
You're almost gone.
Please stay forever and never let go .
We're flying through the night .
The nights getting better when you're by my side,
Dont roll your eyes rewind .
We wont say a word.
..
Did i mention how nervous i am ?
..
Im flying into the sky .
I better not be let down

ASDhoausdhoaushdsd .Whaat?

I'm actually doing homework for a change..
what the fuck is this?
I actually finished a book in one day ..
WHAT THE HELL.
- shakes head- .
what am i doing ?


I'm trying to live life to the fullest..
By reading books and doing homework? <-- ew no . what zee fook . o_O
I havent had any energy drinks in days and coffee in days ... Or pop :| .
I think i'm going to go crazy .
Blog . + me = Not going to work ouut . . .
I feel like skipping down the street and screaming random things .. Anyone wanna do that with me ?
Every day for the summeeer.
I'm truly going crazy. help.

Drake.♥

OH MY GOD ! ,.
No more blogging for me ..
BUT
All i have to say is .. I LOVE DRAKE. ;D
Listen to his new song if you haven't already.
" Over "
BUWHAHA . i love him. okay bye? [;

Still Looking For Mr. Right

Your skin glows perfectly, you are perfect on the inside, but on the outside you really treat me like shit. I’m just going to light a candle. If it stays on for to long, its not going to work for the next time.. Its just like us , I’m not going to give you chances over and over again. I will dim down like a candle and eventually fade away, I’m also like candy.. Sweet, sour, chewy, rough and sticky. Treat me right and you’ll only see the good side. I need to escape, just be my escape. I’ll never say never to you, Something’s we must not mention. Don’t let me go .. Just hold my forever. I won’t always come back accept the fact that you’re the king of everything. We have friends for everything, these days everyone wants to know how the story ends. I’m feeling sad & alone. I’m trying to figure out if I belong here or not. I got that feeling I cannot explain. I’m trying my best t put a fake smile. There’s no possibility if I have no friends you’re my shelter when it rains. I feel like these days have grown longer. Protect me from the pain and I’ll do the same. Don’t cheat on anyone because payback is a bitch. You told me not to get hurt, I didn’t until you fed me lies and killed me on the inside . For everything I did, I’ll blame it on my stupidity. When I’m sad & it rains, I like to walk in the streets alone to let go of my thoughts.
I need a shield to protect me from the pain. I’m just young and stupid. If we follow our hearts we would be together. Looking back at everything will make you feel stupid. Lets punch the click and walk away, you could say so long to everything. I might have learned the hard way but at least I did it my way. I have held on tight for my life, its time I let go. Safety has gone and come, It left and its time for me to not care, accidents are waiting to happen.
I hate myself for missing you. You stole my heart and broke it , every time I thought back when we kissed I cant think straight. All the games you played, All the promises you told me were all lies .
Everyone has to stop throwing valuable words around. Someday you’re going to look back and think what went wrong? Why was I a jerk? But mostly you’re going to hate yourself for breaking everyone’s heart . I’m falling fast, So fast not to care.

Repeat x Repeat

Let’s travel to the stars and kick it there forever. Just meet me at Main Street. Let’s walk away in any direction for hours, Why cant I move on? Why do I remember when we first met? Everyone must stop breaking my heart. Just come back home to my soul where you belong. I keep on telling myself that a better day has yet to come. Together we could fight everything.

Go long “Dad”
Go long and never come back . Don’t say anything. Just leave.

You Need To Crash and Burn

My hearts bearing slowly while I think and tell myself not to cry but I shed a few tears. I think about useless things. I hate it when I get caught crying.. Everyone asks
Are you okay?” Obviously not but let’s just say okay so they would go away. You’re the reason I’m shedding tears. You said I am a mistake to life, its true I am so stop telling me this everyday. I will never forget those words that came out of your mouth. I may act like I have forgotten, but the truth is I haven’t .sorry’s don’t work with me, my heart is full of scars on the inside. No one cares in my family. Well at least about me. My eyes are sore and puffy from crying over and over again. I’m trying to stop everything but what’s on the back of my mind each day is I hear “You’re no good for this family & that you’re a mistake” over and over again. You said you care but that’s obviously a lie. Stop repeating it daily. No one cares if I live or die so why not just die now? I can’t take the pain anymore. I have nothing to fight for, its no use . Love creates hate and hate creates love. Lets run through the fire since there’s nothing left to say. I wish I could get through this with a little push. Its getting hard to breathe. I’m lost ,I’m in over my mind. There’s no one I can trust so stop saying “I’m not alone “because obviously I am.

I Need To Find Myself

Let the walls close on me. You all changed me. I’m starting not to care for life , lets turn to the good side of the book already.. Let’s fly away into space, No more lies please! I’m scared to death. I want to write a song but we all know it’s not going to happen.
I wish I could lay down and be still forever. Turn off the lights and lets not waste time thinking, this is the moment where I stop trying and breathing,
I cannot wait until this is all over. I wish I was everything that everyone wants, One day I will write a song. People need to stop and think about what they have done. Stop the hate, I drink to much and spill the words, I feel so alone when there’s 100+ people in the room. They said I have to change my look, I’m blinded by the lies. Lets not look back at what we have done. Its so unclear, We’re near the finish line. Lets all end it tonight, never looking back at what we have done. I cant stop breathing so just leave me alone. It all ends tonight. I can’t explain it but the walls are closing in . I feel like no one has a :halo: anymore, those walls are gone forever so lets try building them up again, Lets never shout again. You’re everything I need. I’m through with you.I must stop believing your lies. Are you yelling at about this bad weather? I live in it.. In one day I think no one knows how I feel. I wish I could put a lock on my heart so no one would keep on breaking me, I’m like glass and you’re like a bullet that went through me.
I’m sick of everyone judging me. I’m not changing for anyone. I’m sick of having a broken heart, it takes me over a year to recover , I wasted my time on you , I promise you that its going to change, I wish someone found me and kept me from the lies and pain. Like people said, you cant play with fire without getting burned. I’ll stop running from the place I hate the most. I’m not ready to watch you go . Somewhere in my heart is a new start. I just need to find it .

I Must Warn You That I'm NOT perfect.

Everyone thinks I’m perfect,
They expect me to try my best every time.. I need a break you know.
I've messed up one thousand times, and so have you .
Just pull the trigger already. It takes a lot of courage to not care about anything anymore,
I'm now use to the light weighted heart feeling, Stop saying I’m not worth it, I already knows I’m not. Things would have been better if I wasn’t even born.. Correct?.. Correct.
I hate it when you tell yourself you're not going to cry, yet you start crying..
Currently I have no emotion yet I have tons, If that even makes any sense ... Just stop telling me lies already, I know what you have already done.
I wish there was a world I can walk into without worrying, hate causes death. Just stop with the whole thing already. I just want to run to a place full of love. Is there anyone out there that cares about me? My heart is beating slowly yet faster. Eyes burning from the tears, eyes all red, Face drenched in tears , Love is all to blame. It tears me up. Chews me up and spits me out . How many times will I have to feel like this ? My fear is rising, My courage for everything is falling. The world is falling down on me,
I'm just a girl without any chance. The world is beating me up, I'm trying to pick up what you have left behind. Like i said, I cannot hold my breath underwater.
I've thrown everything away. No more trying, no more worrying correct? WRONG
One more step i take, I’ll end up on the floor over and over again .
Why is it that I always listen to the haters? All I’ve got are haters.
If I stay forever its going to get worse and worse .
There is NOTHING to dream about, What if you stay forever? It wont get any better.. EVERYONE chews me up and spits me back out . I've gotten use to all the hate in this world,
I could go on about this hate but there is no point at all .. Everyone is killing me. Music is my escape .. But what if music does not help anymore?
Don’t you know i forgot about everything? ( well trying to )
My voice goes shakey, Eyes gets watery, Eyes get blurry from the tears, Heart= Light weighted, I dont need anyone’s pity. I'm sick of everyone saying " i'll be there for you " Stop lying already. I just want the truth about everything,
Ever feel like you cant get through something? And that your friends cant help this time? I need to find an escape from this world .
I have so much on my mind , I just cannot express my feelings.
Can someone just tell me what to do or say?
I cannot make it I swear , I have no reason to try anymore..
I'm going to try ONE last time.. just ONE more time.
If this doesnt work out, I dont know what i'm going to do , Im tired of my eyes getting red from crying my eyes out. Is there any way to clear my mind ?
I wish I could refresh my memory.
I wish everything would get better. I know that there's people without a home & things like that, but theres always love that they have.. Which is what I dont have. I have hate only 1% is love , its better than nothing but that one percent is called tough love . I'm tired of everything. Trying, Crying, Hurting , Smiling Did i mention crying?
I could write over 100 books about my feelings but it still wont explain it all .
Am i the only one who feels like this ? Am i a freak? I have to much bundled up inside of me ,
If you see me + punching bag + tears, thats only 0.01% of my feelings being expressed. Im not done with the rest. I'm only done with trying

This Is For Everyone Who Bleeds

I'm running low on strength for everything. I have no more reason to try for anything, Love is a waste, relationships are going down the drain, and my family is fucked in the head (That was mostly directed to my “DAD”
Trying to succeed in life is not going so well, I'm not having fun, EVERYTHING is going wrong.
I'm also tired of fighting your battles. Sick of trying for you. I wish I had enough strength to fight for what i believe in, I feel like I’m in this all alone.
Most of my friends are fading away, my family is just nuts. I cannot live one day without someone yelling at me.
I express my feelings by going silent or yelling back or write/paint
All I have to say about this is goodbye; I don’t trust anyone, not even myself...
I live each day with a smile on my face for a few hours, But each day the sadness beats the happiness.. I wish everyone liked me and not started shit.. I also wish I knew every answer and that I’m smart.
I'm sick of this yelling,
What I all had is now gone.
You don’t know what you've done to me.
I made it through a lot of years of my life; I don’t think I can try anymore.
Just lock me in my room forever. In my soul only lies a lonely heart, I wish all the hate will get up and walk away. This is NOT working out; I just want to run away, I have no home. My home is now hell .
I cannot walk a straight line... Everyone says not to worry but that’s my specialty,
I'm not super woman. I'm invisible to everyone, Can you even hear me? Or hear what I have to say? It doesn’t matter what you do, just take me out of this place. Let’s just set off this bomb It’s hard to breathe. Let’s set off the fires & walk away. I'm not coming home to your soul.

QUITTING

Can't we pretend everything is okay?
I feel like quitting everything.. Why can’t there be a new start?
The truth always hurts, but the lies are worse.
I'm tired of crying myself to sleep & feeling like shit, I always pick the choice that feels better to ME.
I'm losing sense, you're such a jerk. Forever I’ll wish you're going to die.. Once you're dead, I’ll be laughing while everyone else is sad..
Just stop yelling and being such a fucking pain in the ass.
You're not worth my tears. Stop telling me I’m no good, I'm better than you, this is my time and I’ll only have this time to make it

x2 Short blog thing.

Oh man.
I cannot wait for summer ♥.
I'll be working at the CNE (hopefully)
Late night walks, Hot days ,A loud 8 hours at work , Working with kids ,
Hanging with friends, Partying , All-Nighters, Beaches + More !
Oh god :)
Hopefully there is no drama, But everything happens for a reason right ?
I like discovering unknown music, ;) .

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Strength is getting higher ,

You will look back on the moments when you nearly gave up & decided to keep fighting and realize that moment was when you started winning.

I wont say anything at all .
I know your deepest secrets ,
You ripped me into pieces I'm trying to stop the bleeding from my heart ,
Im speechless, There is nothing familiar anymore .
I dont know what to say , I did not deserve this,
You're face looks so innocent .
I have more strength then i ever did a few months ago .
I still have those pictures , I dont want to throw it out ,
Why throw out memories that were the best yet the worst ?
I wont return to your soul .
I'm sorry that I walked away .
This use to be easy
But I want you to know , I still care .
I'm just tired of this crap .
I feel so ashamed . This use to be really easy ,
I'll always be beside you . Even though i'm 1000 miles away .
We use to belong in this world .
When I hear our song , I remember the faces and the familiar places .
I'm trying not to disappoint you at the same time .
Just slow down now , The secret is not out .
I will change everything till its perfect again .
I dont give a fuck about anything anymore ,
You made me feel this way.
What you want you always get it .
Selflessness is the key to inner peace. If that even makes any sense. :|
.. I have lots to say . Its all in my heart , I just cannot get it out .

Now we gotta get up and shout , Till we get booted out

I Should have known better .
If its not for you I would tear this place to the ground ,
I'm always in over my head :/
Im not worth your time .
In a matter of minutes you're going to forget and never forgive ,
I'm guilty but i'm safe for one more day :|
Its not always for one ,
You look so fierce ,
I'm trying to dig out but i cannot , I should have known better then calling you out on a night like this ,
I'm always in over my head. I'm dying to live another life .
I'm tired of saying sorry , Im tired of hearing your lies, Just wipe off that fake smile off of your face ,
I would change everything , Stop saying you'll change.
Because you're not going to . Stop saying all these lies. I'm sick of them but I keep on falling for you ,I'm going out of my mind. I expected more from you this time.
I learned from MY mistakes , I'm not giving you another chance , You're out of my life .
I woke up from this world of lies ,
Anything is possible , If anything is possible .. Then one day I can get over you and never come back for you ,
I'll try to fight forever .
Its just You and me ,
No fear , Bright smiles ,
Lets Run not walk ,
Lets run till we cannot feel our legs anymore.
Lets just smile while we walk a few miles ,
I feel so incomplete when you're not here
She's trying to break us apart,
She doesn't even know who we are .
i'm watching everything come true , Break or hold .. just slip away
Lets shake it up.
Because they wont break us apart .
Set off you're alarm assholes.
I'm trembling with fear .
Everything is overwhelming, I cant stop talking to myself , The sky is falling .
I'm lost without you . I dont care where we are, I just care that i'm lost with you .
The clock keeps on ticking ,
Where we are heading , There is no heading back .
I'm a despite cry for help .
Shut up already , I know i'm lost But i'm lost with you ♥.
Things are looking better whenever i 'm with you .
Everything is brighter than the sun when i'm with you
Don't you worry ,
We headed away from hurricane street ,
Dont care where i'm heading , As long as i'm with you and away from home.
Time is following me ,
No fear in my eyes i'm ready to fly .I told you I've grown stronger
It took me 2 weeks to figure this isn't working out ,
Haven't slept more than 2 hours .
I'm way to busy thinking .
I feel like We are a million miles apart when you're right beside me ,
I should have tired harder ,
I fell flat on my face to many times ,
Maybe i tried to hard ?
I would love to see you try .
..
screw this long ass blog . I'm out

Dislike x 100

I hate it when I try to help ,
Yet i make it worse .
Or make someone sad/mad. :|
Sorry.

SHORT BLOG THING.

You could do worse and I can do better ,
I wish you were always beside me,
You know that i miss you ,
You know that I want you , You dont know i'm confused about everything .
I Just CANNOT let go .. I dont know why

Forever Young .

I'm pretty sure you feel the same way .


You like him .He likes Her . You're confused .
You have friends like me to help get you through , ♥.
I Owe it all to you ,
You got me through things . You're a true friend .
I cannot help it but help ,
He likes you . You go crazy. You dont act like yourself,
I end up calming you down.
You guys keep on talking ;).
You're both confused ,
He's trying to tease. You end up getting hurt .
When He talks to you , You get butterflies in your stomach, You go all red + Smile like theres no tomorrow :)
When he does not reply for awhile,
Your heart drops until he responds . When he walks past by you in the halls , You dont make any eye contact , Once hes past you , You always look back.
You're afraid of him leaving and never coming back .
You can feel it in your spine , You only want to be still for awhile beside him .
Holding hands and closing eyes,
You want him to protect you,
Just look into her eyes already .

There Will Be No More .

I keep on trying letting you go ,
But I cant let you go ...
:| .
I feel like your the only one i can talk too ,
I cant get you off of my mind ...
So can you just come into my life now ?
I'm letting you know .. i cant let you go .
you're always on my mind ..
I cant concentrate on anything at all .
I cant let you go .
I love it when you're by my side , Forever and always .
But what if that " Forever & Always" never lasts ?
When you are here , Nothing matters what I have done or what " They " Have done.
Between us .. Love has already faded
My heart is racing ,
I'm trying to let everything out yet keep it in ,
I wouldn't want to see your tears .

Out Of Time .

If only i had one more day ,
I was hanging out with all of my friends ,
Noticed a few has gone , And the true ones stayed .
We need to find time to make this last ,
Before you know it we'll be walking away
The Month is over ,
I'll never forget the things that we said , I'll never forget how much fun we had
But its over now .
I feel like i'm going crazy , Its time for us to walk our different directions ,
But you and i could run away , We all have reasons for everything ,
These days I will not feel afraid .
I've made up my mind.
We will be just fine .
you and I should run away ..
For some reason i cannot let you go .
I dont know what to say to you ,
Lets be silent and walk away forever
Its never to late to say what you want to say ,
So why not say it now ?
AHH
If only i can read your mind :(

I'm Done with this .,.. I THINK

Lets burn your things that you gave to me .
You repeat the same words over and over .
I'm only here for one more time .
Lets tear down the house and light candles .
Kick down the new year .
I'm only here for one more time . :|
Scream like you mean it ,
sing like you mean it ,
When we're side by side .. You make me go all bubbly and happy .
When i'm mad/sad at you .. I always forget why i'm pissed at you and thats what i hate about you .
One more time and i'm gone ..
I keep on telling myself that .
It does not end up happening ..
Do you remember the nights we spent talking ? .
I miss smiling for hours when i'm with you ,
remember when we stayed up all night ?
I feel like i'm safe when i'm near you , Even if we're on a cliff .
Of course you left me ,
I Now feel like a bullet hole went through my chest ,
Painful , speechless and terrified .
Just dont count me in for anything , You're always the one to say i'm never going to hurt you . Now thats a big lie ! Are you done wasting my time ? . You're like a snake bite to me , Painful and now wounded , Dont count on me for anything anymore .
I'm ready for anything tonight , You're not my shooting star so go ahead and fade away , Please dont say you'll stay . Please dont say your never going to leave .
Because you're already gone , Tonight we'll say our goodbyes ,
I'll look into your eyes and you'll look into mine . . If everything goes right ,I'll end up walking away with a smile on my face and a tear on his .
I'll wake up tomorrow without you there and a smile on my face .

Hell cannot wait for you .

I wish i could erase every memory.
With You and I
i cannot wait for you to go to hell ,
Hell is calling your name .
I'm going to heaven .
I'll be your secret Valentine .
I Wish i could write a song .
Dont waste your time . :|
Dont worry about those talks .
I'll take care of you tonight ,
Just rest your head on me .
Dont waste your time being a douche ,
I wish you would like me one day ,
Secret love , .
I'm shaking in fear , I'll just close my eyes and hope for a good one ,
Last nights dream was about you and I being together forever ,
We were fearless ,
You treated me well . You take me for granted.
You got me 100 feet off the ground , Lets just hold hands and forget about everything .
You always break me down , I'll stop my breathing for you ,
I'm not leaving , Its life that i'm dreaming .
You said lets change our look , Dreams that wont come true ,
i'll leave it at that .
. ERR .

Do you really want to live forever ?

I cant make it through the day , I'm letting go and walking away
I thought you would be there for me everyday ,
Love is everywhere, its like air .
Your to busy playing video games ,
Yet you cannot even visit me ? or spend time with me .
You're really gay .
I cant stop looking at the floor ,
Or the walls .. Thinking about you . :|
I always wonder if you even think about me ,
To me .. You have got to heaven to hell . .. for me :|
I said I need you now ,
Just dont pull back on me now.
I'm not the same girl you met months ago ,
I've changed. I've grown stronger But still in fear for love ,
I dont hold back . Well not today .
Trying to get everything out without anyone getting hurt is really hard ,
Honestly, I do lie to make you happy .

Nervous and shy .

I'm nervous and shy ,
You keep on breaking my heart over and over .
Lets just turn off the lights and close our eyes and stop thinking ,
Lets keep this a secret ,
Lets not talk at all .
I wish you could press a button to ignore things .
I wish i was scared of nothing ,
I wish i had the guts to say what i want to say .
I love you .
why cant i say that .
RIGHT HERE RIGHT NOW.
If only .
We could build this relationship up .
Lets try .
I know you dont want to .
2 months from now you're not going to remember me ,
or remember our small talks .
I want you , Why cant u be MY man? .
Why cant you be here forever ?
I hate crying over you , just because i said something wrong ,
Or you said something rude to me.
There's nothing i can do .
I ALWAYS just crash and burn . You dont even see what i see .
Crying myself to sleep isnt even the worst thing .
Seeing you EVERYDAY ignoring me , Talking to other girls, Flirting .
LIKE NO . U CAN SUCK MY .. nothing
People say " Live everyday like its your last"
HONESTLY .. I try to everyday
I try to be happy everyday , but its really hard when you're around me , Acting like you dont know me..
OBVIOUSLY YOU DO .
I miss those late night talks ,
Internet has saved my life . Talking to you at 3am ( IT CANNOT GET ANY BETTER THEN THIS )
I need a second to breathe ,
I want to stop trying ,
but i cannot.
Trying to get you is the hardest thing ever . like again .. You like her . I like you . She likes you . = not going to work out .
I try to make you like me .
I go crazy around you .
I need more like an hour to breathe .
I ask myself every night ,
What do you want from me? Because I KNOW I wont let you down.
I miss you as always .
Stop leaning on her,
Lean on me . I know whats best .
I'll try to be perfect in every way.
:/
You always get what you want dont you ?
Stop leaving me hanging even though I ALREADY got use to it .

Sizzle Sizzle whaat? :) . Haha .

I cant get you off my mind ,
And why would i even try ? :]♥.
Every things getting better.
Do you know how much u mean to me ?
If i could go back in time , I would not change a thing .
Everything happens for a reason right?
Letting you go was not easy . But i've found someone new and better .

This & That.

I dont even know how i feel ,
All i know is i love you
I don't want you to go ,Please stay forever
People always wonder how love lasts that long ,
As long as people care for each other and have respect, They're gonna go on forever.
..
You make me go crazy
You give me butterflies
Its the way that you talk and smile ♥.
Its also the way you hold my hand ,
I'll stay with you forever .

You say you're sorry ..
I actually believed in you .
Dont know why but i keep on giving you chances ,
Thinking you'll change one day.. I Always end up hurt .
I never had the chance to say the things i wanna say .

All I can remember is you walking away ,
You're not my everything.
Stop thinking you're the person i only have .

I'm Driving Fast So We crash .

Cause i will die for you ,
Lets leave this place behind .
Its so unclear . :/
Just take me by the hand and walk to a place we love ,
Cause if you jump I will jump too .
Lets never look back
Just blame it on love ...
I have no guts .
Take the step and i'll follow .
I'll leave it all for you .
Walls are closing in , so lets decide
Theres nothing left to prove ,
We have made it through :]

... Gay i know. :/
just shut up .

x2.

I hate the broken heart feeling,

We all look into space when we're thinking..
I looked down to the ground and looked at myself with no expression.+ Thinking why dont you like me ..
You always try to talk when we're alone.. Why not in front of everyone?
My mind goes crazy when i look at you.

You're busy smoking up blunts and getting mad.
( Well at least starting too )
I Miss your smile,laugh,hugs and kisses.
But what i miss the most is your heart,

All I have to say is dont change for anyone but yourself.

You + Me = Never. You + her = Forever .

I needed you , You needed me , She stepped in and took you away ...

Having nothing left to say is easy .
You seem like you have so much to say .
Why don't u just go ahead and say it ?
Its Worse to finish then start all over right ? :|

( By the way .. I've been listening to the song " Perfect By Hedley the WHOLE entire day ".)

You told me to my face that you weren't perfect, I said no one is ... You point to her and say she is ..
Well thats just nice fucking fag .
No she isn't .No one is ..
Why cant i get over you ?
Why cant i be 10 all over again ?
Lies are better to be untold .
if that even makes sense .
..
Screw this . :| .
OKAY BYE ?

.. Double Late Night Blog.. i think .

OH HAY .
Kay so , I like your face .. Therefore I shall shoot you in your face. :)
I dont know .
I'm bored and pissed.
" Its Our Time, Breathe it in , Worlds to change & Worlds to win. Its Our Turn"
Hmm.
Sorry its a Quote thing from this book .
ANYWAYS ! What are you doing strangers? :}


You like me , I like you ...
I'm just afraid of getting hurt again .. :/
Don't you just get tired of getting hurt over and over again ?
... I got use to that. :| . Still scared out of my mind ,
People always leave and never come back, They lie , You listen .
Sitting in silence thinking what went wrong ,
Blaming yourself for everything..
No expression on your face
A BIG smile from his face .. Errr . its just repeats its self every time .
These words we listen to EVERY TIME ,
Thinking it will actually change one day
" I will always be here for you " + " I love you " .
Seriously guys + girls. Love is a strong word stop tossing it around like its nothing .
When I'm around you i feel like everything has gone away..
Stop acting like a douche when you're near your friends.
Don't pretend you don't know me.. Every day we walk past each other in the hall, I always look and smile , you always look away .
When we're alone you act like you did nothing,
YET when i'm with you i forget all the bad things that happened with us .
I might as well forget about you .
Wrong choice i know .
But i must try. :\
ANYWAYS . shutting up now .
But i'm pretty sure mostly everyone feels like this . ♥.

YOU"RE A FUCKA .

I HONESTLY DONT GET WHY PARENTS RANT ABOUT SHIT WE DONT CARE ABOUT .
.
Stupid DOUCHES .
:[.
I've done so much shit for them , and they've done the SAME AMOUNT OF SHIT FOR ME.
We're even . NOW SHUT THE HELL U FAGS .
:|
You're not even home for over 12 hours .
I do EVERYTHING in the house .
If i were you . SHUT THE FUCK UP . fag.
..
KAY , . sorry i had to take those shit out .
..
I;m so mean :|
i take that back . i truly do love my parents but they do get on my nerve sometimes.

Anyways..

I have an urge to go paintballing ,
I wanna shoot someone in the ASS :)
Dont you ?
Its fun to run around with a gun and shoot people you dont like :D ... Go Try it sometime .
Im so stressed about shit .

BUT YOU KNOW WHAAAT? :)
I Listen to DOWN WITH WEBSTER <3.
to get over things. + Blab to my friends . ♥.
DEAR FRIENDS .
I love you .

Down With Webster + A NEW DIVIDE = WHAAAT? ♥

Down with webster = ♥.
If you hate them .. Then go suck a dick .

^_^ .
Diggy ( D.J) = Dave Ferris = July 8
Kap (Hype Man ) = KYLE FAIRLIE = June 13
Pat(Vocals+Guitar) = Patrick Gillet = June 13
Cam(Vocals) = Cameron Mc Cloud Hunter = January 29
Bucky (Vocals)= Martin .... something ... = MEEH. Unknown ;)
Marty (DRUMMER) = Andrew Martino♥ = April 3
Tyler(Keyboard+Bass) = Tyler Armes = April 16

.. To obsessed. :| . shut up . >.<

KAY SO . They all live Downtown.. :|
The studio they like to work in is in Mississauga
.. seriously i know more about then than the internet, :)
They wear lots of Nike+Vans .. i'm such a creep :|
i know all their songs..
I know the lyrics to ALL of their songs.
Fuck My . .. Life . :|
i'm SUCH a creep . KAY SHUT UP
Volume TWO is coming out THIS spring♥
Faak . i'm such a stalker .
not ,

ANYWAYS!

myspace.com/anewdivide

^ Check it out!
They're really good :) . Join their facebook group! :D.

OH HAY GURL.

Wanna go paintballing with mee?
Kay thanks.
2:26 AM! not tired at all ...
I hope I don't get hurt during paintball..
I just wanna hurt others. ;)
KIDDING!
kay so .
currently 2;38. shutting up now.
GOODNIGHT AND GOODBYE.♥

Oh hay Dere .

I've NEVER had the courage to say what I really feel about you ,
You're hard to get over..
I miss you , I hate you .. I want to rip your heart out . ( NOT TRYING TO SOUND VERY ..... ... EHH but yeah ? ) .

.. Crushes kill me . :$ .
You like Her , I like you , She likes you , Hmm .It just continues ..

"To the haters out there, I'm not your enemy ,I'm your hero :)"
.. RevRun .
:).

. Kay so screw you jerks .
Go suck a dick , Go get wasted, go live on the street . FAG . :]
ANYWAAAYS .
Every had a crush that made your heart melt ?
...
. . Relationships suck . Thats all i have to say , :| .
MY brain does NOT work in the day, ... :|

Triple Blog . WHAT WHAAAAT?

Oh hai there .
Whatchu doing sexy thaaang ? .

What am i doing ?
All I have to say is Me.My Music. And I . = ♥.
Oh trust me , If we could make babies.. we would . ;).

I knew you once, You never knew me then
Afraid to ever say,I wanted to be friends
And now the years have passed,you're far away
And suddenly I feel I'm not the same
The walls are breaking down
I think I'm crackin' up
I look around
Now everything's too much

^ Best I Never Had By The Downtown Fiction !

I can hold my breath underwater
Counting down like sheep sent to slaughter they go
Yeah, One by one they walk right through, but they don't know what we will do

^ Hold My Breathe By The Downtown Fiction

Did it hurt when you fell down from heaven?
It's stupid to use the words others
Spent time to achieve
When the words that we're needing
Are inside us all somewhere
Waiting for rescues
They need to be free It's a lie not to listen
A sin, pessimistic when
Things that we need to say
Fall through the cracks
Like I love you, I miss you
I hate life with out you
And where have you been my love
I want you back.
So I don't feel alone in the world,
And baby yeah you're hard to get over,
We're older, it's just a little lie we tell all ourselves,
In itself, promise me, let's never get older.
So I don't miss the feeling of "left in the cold"
And this feeling of healing has long since been old
I find times when I'm missing the times you convinced me
I don't need somebody to hold my hand softly and tell me she's wishing
I wished she was with me cause I know now I'm drifting
I'm cleansed yet I'm missing the voice of an angel.
Leave it up to me to blow this whole thing aside and think of nothing like were nothing
But were young and alive
The clock on your wall isn't moving at all
Lets break out
Lets go out
Get a room
A hotel baby
I'm not saying that I'll love you forever
Hell who am I kidding
Cause were perfect together
Notice that when we talk I can't help but stutter
Your to perfect for words
I just want you forever.

^ Affinity By Red Car Wire .

But honestly.. who says " Did it hurt when you fell from heaven"?
That Cheesy Motha Fuukar. :).
Kay I'm boring i know,
STOP READING THIS ! :) .
.. no seriously.
stop.
okay shutting up .

The Buried Life

.....
You may watched the show called " The Buried Life "
I honestly AM obsessed with them + DOWN WITH WEBSTER♥. ( Obviously Down with Webster WAY MORE )
Anyways ! .
They started to live life normally. Have you ever thought/heard about the saying " Live Each Day Like Its Your Last"? or " Life Is short something something :) "
Yeeeah . well those guys asked themselves that question , they started to think what REALLY would happen.
Then the list started ! They got their name " The Buried Life" from a poem .
Jonnie Penn read that poem in English class, He took it to his friends and showed them,
They all dropped out of collage and bought a truck from Duncan & Jonnie Penn's Uncle or something like that .
KAY I MUST SHUT UP . All of you Prob know the story and shits,
♥.

We Should Whisper

Hey Hi Hello !
( Thats a band by the way , you should check them out )

Ever want to "Dis-Own" a friend ?
I sure do now .
Don't you hate it when things go wrong ?
What are your obsessions ?
I hate it when people don't support your decision, Like seriously SHUT UP .
Get a life, at least i'm more creative.
Exactly, Fag.

.. Sorry ,
ANYWAYS :) .
Don't you hate it when you see people get hurt ?
I see that every day .." Tale of Two Summers"
Read that .. that book has now made me want to "Blog".
Pretty weird.. LATE NIGHT BLOGGING . = Fail.
Currently listening to indie/rock/rap/hip-hop/screamo music , What are you listening to ? I see you ! Turn around ....

GOBBLE GOBBLE
What do you like to do ? . I have not been bowling in over 10 years.
I dont even know how to bowl,
Honestly i stick my ass out and THROW the ball... That's right i said it .. THROW !


Any concerts you want to go see ?
( Bring me or else i'm haunting you ) .

I really would like to go to a BIG concert ,
its called " Warp Tour 2010"
Warp Tour has gotten Indie bands to famous ,
Warp Tour is like A Indie fest ! :) .
Lots of people actually go ! Unfortunately i CANNOT go this summer!
No money , No ride, DOUCHE BAGS WONT COME WITH ME!
I wish everything was close to me and money came EASY ,
No job , wanting a job , school = pain in the ass , Relationships with everyone = . MEEEH. Kinda in the middle .
Music is my savior,
CURRENTLY I really want to learn how to take PROFESSIONAL photos.
Did I mention that I REALLY want things in life to come easy?
Anyways ..... I also really want to ... I don't know. ..

What do you want to do ? :)

Once Was Love, Is now lust, It's now gone,

Well this is going to be cheesy .

Do you always hear the question " Have you ever loved somebody it hurt so much ?"
I think guys have no clue what they say ..
a simple " Goodbye" without a hug really makes a girl go crazy,
I DON'T like it when i fall for the bad guys , They spend so much time flirting with others , they don't even notice it . "Have you ever fell OUT of love?."
Do YOU believe " Love at first sight" is true?
This reminds me of the show " John & Kate Plus 8", I'm not believing what the media ,
People feed you the wrong information everyday. Most people believe all the " Gossip sites".
Ever look at these things like Broken Telephone?
Every girl had/has/HAVING Their heart(s) broken.
Ever felt like you have no reason to live anymore ? .
If a boy that i had feelings for broke up with me right now , I would be obviously sad. But i'll always ask what went wrong ? Was it me ? or was it you ?
I'm no relationship expert but ... I wont get depressed over that , We will always have someone in our lives waiting to lend a hand ,
Just take that chance and lean to them ,
.. Cheesy right ? .
-- 12:30 Am, Not even sleepy at all ....

Am i crazy ?

Oh dear lord ! .
Note to self : No one is going to read this , i should just stop now ...

Why am i so obsessed with music? Honestly it has gotten me through LOTS of things. id probably be dead right now if i haven't found good music. Im honestly thankful for my friends and my family , this sounds so cheesy but i'm thankful for living under a roof , times are rough but nothings better then hanging around the ones you love most. my obsession for things is CRAZY! im REALLY obsessed with music , are you ? , this one band called Down With Webster is honestly MY LIFE ! i've heard about them last year, i thought they honestly were weird. A few months later i decide to listen to more of their music and i REALLY liked it ! They live near " Downtown", I probably know more things than the internet does about them . Thats how obsessed i am! Well anyways .. i'm obsessed with lots of things .. Where do i even start? its pretty weird too!
I obsessed how my bed looks, i'm obsessed about how my computer is displayed , pretty weird things...
i obsess over shoes and how dirty they get , yet i never clean them...
ANYWAYS! i always come alive at night, do you ?
i don't want to sleep and ALWAYS end up doing random things,
For example .. Look for more indie bands. ( i dont like to use the word known because no one is unknown in this world ) Looking for indie bands are quite fun! One band leads to another and another! it never stops. I've got about over 800 songs , from indie bands . ! Quite fun :)
if i am not doing that or talking to friends,outside or things of that nature , i'm usually stubbing upon sites.
Honestly i'm only writing this is because i want to improve my English skills , I know i'm such a NERD ,
So what are you obsessed with ?